Ego Painted Grey

This song is about bipolar disorder. Here is a line by line breakdown:

I feel the pain but I’m afraid to cry All the time, desperate hiding tears

these two lines above indicate the fact that most people with bipolar disorder tend to repress their feelings

My life is boring and I count the days On and on, woe is here to stay

these two lines above talk about the symptom that most bipolar people get, where they feel like nothing is fun anymore, and as if life is just dragging on with no meaning.

Only if God would show a sign for me Oh… Only if God could hold my begging hands

^clearly a cry indicating that most bipolar people are disenlightened and see through religion

This endless torture’s building up my rage Holding on, hide my agony

^Also dealing with repression, as well as showing how repressing the painful feelings can lead to rage.

I’m getting weary just to be alive All I want is help!!!

Clearly a cry out from the pain, and claiming that life is pointless^

So, you dove into the dark beyond yourself? Lost your way to find the surface once again

^This expresses the confusion that is associated with the disorder

Insomnia will kill all your solemn nights… Oh! Haunting your despair!!!

These lines above talk about the insomnia that almost all bipolar people get (it's an actual symptom)

Sorrow made your life a living hell Lights are fading

^shows the feelings of depression and sadness, as well as feeling as if you're fading away

Caught inside the black-holed inner-self Ego painted grey…

And this^ above shows how bipolar people think badly of themselves. their ego is "painted grey".

Insomnia will hold pleasures in a shell And your defiant stare!!!

^more about being up all night at times

Great song.