So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
And in the morning, when I rise,
One question, it feels like the sun in my eyes,
Am I making the most of this life?
So much trouble and so much strife,
And in my guilty hour,
Through all of my shame,
When all my love is run sour,
I have no one else to blame,
Cause it finds me through the mask I wear,
And I see it through it my eyes closed,
But still I can not bare to stare into my worries and my woes,
Theres comfort in self loathing and its easy to slip into it
But still I must learn to lead my life with no regrets,
All the time it all moves in the same direction,
So don't let it pass you by,
Because It moves so fast , theres no time for perfection,
So make the most of this life
Make the most of this life, uh
Make the most of this life
Make the most of this life
And when I fall I fall hard
And I dwell to often in my falls
I must accept it and move on
Theres just no shame in having to crawl
Because it finds me through the mask I wear,
And I see it through it my eyes closed,
But still I can not bare to stare into my worries and my woes,
Theres comfort in self loathing and its easy to slip into it
But still I must learn to lead my life with no regrets,
All the time, it all moves in the same direction,
So don't let it pass you by,
Because It moves so fast , theres no time for perfection,
So make the most of this life oh,
Make the most of this life ,oh
Make the most of this life
Just Make the most of this life
And if you come to me smiling,
Oh I, will see you shining out from within,
Such a beautiful grin aw
Falling down on me and frageling my skin
Wake I am pour I a cup of,
Wake I am pour I a cup
Wake I am pour I a cup of life
One question, it feels like the sun in my eyes,
Am I making the most of this life?
So much trouble and so much strife,
And in my guilty hour,
Through all of my shame,
When all my love is run sour,
I have no one else to blame,
Cause it finds me through the mask I wear,
And I see it through it my eyes closed,
But still I can not bare to stare into my worries and my woes,
Theres comfort in self loathing and its easy to slip into it
But still I must learn to lead my life with no regrets,
All the time it all moves in the same direction,
So don't let it pass you by,
Because It moves so fast , theres no time for perfection,
So make the most of this life
Make the most of this life, uh
Make the most of this life
Make the most of this life
And when I fall I fall hard
And I dwell to often in my falls
I must accept it and move on
Theres just no shame in having to crawl
Because it finds me through the mask I wear,
And I see it through it my eyes closed,
But still I can not bare to stare into my worries and my woes,
Theres comfort in self loathing and its easy to slip into it
But still I must learn to lead my life with no regrets,
All the time, it all moves in the same direction,
So don't let it pass you by,
Because It moves so fast , theres no time for perfection,
So make the most of this life oh,
Make the most of this life ,oh
Make the most of this life
Just Make the most of this life
And if you come to me smiling,
Oh I, will see you shining out from within,
Such a beautiful grin aw
Falling down on me and frageling my skin
Wake I am pour I a cup of,
Wake I am pour I a cup
Wake I am pour I a cup of life
Lyrics submitted by zach_12
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I always liked the line "there is comfort in self loathing" but I never knew what it meant. How is there comfort in self loathing?
Here's how:
If you lose confidence in yourself it becomes much easier to not take chances. By not taking chances you can never have the feeling of disappointment that is inevitable when you fail at something. This may be a relationship, trying out for something, or anything really. That is how there is comfort in self loathing.
So don't let it pass you by, Because It moves so fast, there's no time for perfection, So make the most of this life