Phantom Limb

[ This poem is about two school girls overcoming rejection and indifference in the small town in which they live. They go along with the flow, but in their minds they rise above the people around them and will soon leave the town behind. James Mercer has stated it to be about his own personal experience of exclusion retold through the plight of two lesbians, but of course, there is nothing in the poem to limit it to that particular case. ]

Foals in winter coats, [ young girls trying to insulate themselves from the harsh numbness of the people around them ] White girls of the north, [ in some New England town ] File past one, five, and one [ lonely individuals, or small cliques, but no meaningful friendships ] They are the fabled lambs, [ sacrifices ] Of Sunday ham, [ of the church tradition ] The EHS norm. [ and the high school order ]

And they could float above the grass, In circles if they tried, [ they have great potential in their abilities far beyond the ordinary people around them ] A latent power I know they hide, [ to keep from being different ] To keep some hope alive, That a girl like I could ever try, Could ever try. [ but this power still gives them hope to reach beyond the limitations of their town ]

So we just skirt the hallway sides, [ they accept they have no place with the rest ] A phantom and a fly, [ one friend is invisible, the other, insignificant ] Follow the lines and wonder why [ comply with the set social order ] There's no connection. [ but question it's lack of humanity ]

A week of rolling eyes, And cheap shots from the tribe, [ small-minded and petty rejection by their peers ]

And we're off to Nemarca's porch again, Another afternoon with the Goat Head tunes, And pilfered booze. [ meet up with a friend, listen to Rolling Stones, and drink alcohol; this means (1) there is no acting as parent to stop them (2) the parent probably uses alcohol as a refuse, both reinforce that Nemarca doesn't get love and support from home, and so she is a natural friend for the other two rejects ]

We wandered through her mama's house, [ the father has left or died ] The milk from the window lights, [ lonely, unkept house ] Family portrait circa '95, [ back when the family used to be whole ] This is that foreign land, [ foreign because they aren't accepted by the natives ] With the sprayed-on tans, [ fake conformity to society's standards ] And it all feels fine, Be it silk or slime, [ but everything gives the appearance of being ok, whether it is or isn't ]

So, when they tap our Monday heads, [ when the girls have to go back to school ] Two zombies walk in our stead, [ they follow the motions, but don't really accept any of it ] This town seems hardly worth the time, [ they don't value the people who don't value them ] And we'll no longer memorize or rhyme, [ they no longer accept what they're taught ] Too far along in our climb, [ either they're too far beyond the town in their personal growth to accept the old beliefs, or they are looking at how they will soon finish school and be free to go live better lives ] Stepping over what now towers to the sky, [ soon they will overcome the school/town/limitations ] With no connection.

So, when they tap our Sunday heads, [ they make the same commentary about the religious aspect of the town ] Two zombies walk in our stead, This town seems hardly worth our time, And we'll no longer memorize or rhyme, Too far along in our climb, Stepping over what now towers to the sky, With no connection.