Good Enough

Well, I have some sort of predicament with this song, and I came here to look at what people thought (because I might be missing some linguistic meaning due to own ignorance) ... and well, I'M SURPRISED.

I don't know anything about Amy Lee's intent for this piece, but it always has (and still is) to me a SAD, DEPRESSING, LOWERING, DEMORALIZING, DISMAYING, and every other synonym I might come up with. I'm not saying that I don't like it, or that it's wrong in some way, but it shocks me to realize most people actually think of this song as HAPPY.

Well, TO ME (at least) it's about NOT being loved, an UNrequited love, in the sense "I love you and I'd do just ANYTHING for you" but the other person doesn't love you back and never will. The sad part is that when she DOES do what that person wants, even knowing she isn't loved in the degree she loves, and that way she FEELS good enough, and she knows she actually ISN'T good enough, but she likes to pretend she is anyways, as in an illusion.

Maybe it's not the right analogy, but just look at the phrase "Now I can't let go of this dream, I can't breathe, but I feel good enough".

It's like she KNOWS it's HER dream, but she doesn't want to face reality and realize she ISN'T loved, so she keeps on dreaming to feel GOOD ENOUGH to BE LOVED by someone, maybe because of past relationships.

So, this song always gets me down because I think of all the times and people I dissapointed for not being what they thought I would be.

"Am I good enough for you to love me too?" Doesn't that say anything? (I'm not sure if that's a question in the real lyric, though. May someone lighten me up?

I interpret the part of the "rain" as TRUTH. Maybe she is waiting for everything to end (for him to end the relationship), so she can move on and confront reality (or whatever) and LIVE ("pouring life down on me") again or something. Well, can someone enlighten me with an interpretation so I realize once and for all how wrong I am?