Will to Give

I thought you weren't contagious
I thought I owned my inner-self
You offer, now I forget the reason I can't have
As you try hard to please me this need turns to greed down inside
I touch the hand of my sickness and feel my faith divide
if I said I would, would you care?
Would you take me there
And feed my desire with your will to give?
A distant storm and the lightning strikes
The pouring rain feels warm tonight
The thunder echoes and the lesson begins
As one more time you take me in
But I look back at you and think of all the Things I should have said and done
But I can't talk - no I can't talk
I try to hide myself from shame
And try to share the blame for what I've done What have i done?
Now I said I would
Do you care as you take me there?
I taste my first time and now I can't turn away
I lie to myself like a man trying to understand
As you change my life with your will to give
I see disgrace and it's looking back at me
Blame my desire for lies I live and breathe
Begin again though the hardest part to take
Behind my eyes you still remain
I thought you'd understand when you took me there
The hardest part to take you still remain
You still remain