My Vision

not sure what the song means, but the lyrics here are messed up a bit.

This song meant a lot to me when I was 15, and overcoming the reality of being gay but still being closeted, and being madly in love with another boy who never knew I existed.

"I feel like the sun, I feel like the rain I feel like I just found reason for living again"

I had just discovered what it felt like to love, and it brought new light to my life, filled me with hope and dreams after a long stout of stale living. I felt like I knew the world inside out and that I was at one with the universe.

"Cause what I've been dreaming, I know that it's real I know there's just no changing the way I feel"

I was dreaming about this boy night and day, and had been struggling to come to terms with my sexuality. I knew that it was real eventually, and that I couldn't change the way I felt.

"You're into my head I'm out of my mind I feel like I've just found reason for being alive"

This boy entered my life like no other human ever had, and the emotions in my head ran wild, like never before, or since, so I felt I was out of my mind. After wondering what was on the planet for me, I 'found reason for being alive'.

"And I have a secret I think you should know I feel like I just can't keep it It's deep within me And I feel like I'm losing control"

Turning to my family, and saying to them I had a secret that I had been keeping from them for 5 years that haunted me, and I thought they should know. By this point, with all my emotions running at an all time high, I felt like I couldn't keep it, it was deep within me, and I did feel like I was losing control (and I eventually did, ending up in hospital for alcohol poisoning a year later cause it all got out of hand)

"Can you see my vision Of a red hot summer in wine? When love was the feeling With no indecision We were turning that key inside To get in the moment"

I asked if anyone could see my vision of a perfect life, living with the person of my dreams, and it's a "red hot summer in white", not wine, which I like to relate to my attire of that era during summer. When love was the feeling, and I turned that key inside (unlocking the door to my sexuality to myself) and got in the moment.

"We live in a dream, I see you today I feel like all my fears are fading away Been waiting so long for something new I feel like a constant craving for being with you"

To all the people like me and in my position, we lived in a dream. I'd often the that person who stole my heart on a daily basis for that year, and I felt like all my fears were fading away. I had been waiting for something new, and I had a constant craving for being with him.

The rest of the song carries on the sensual feeling for me that was love, a euphoric trance that enchants us for the first time in our lives as young ones. Fantastic song, one of seals best! The Jakatta version is just as good.