So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Quick fix and heartbeats, gets me so easily
Now you got me on my knees
This will be the death to me
Tic tac, time goes by, hits me so suddenly
How you knock me off my feet
I'm the Queen of Apologys
Now I'm fighting this feeling
but it never stops, never stops
I'm still waiting
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
I keep trying
I blame no one, but myself
so honestly, is this how it's gonna be?
Tell me, who's the enemy?
Monkey on my back keeps me so desperatly
How you got me on my knees
This will be the death to me
So sick of this feeling
but it never stops, never stops
I'm still waiting
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
You see, I'm still shaking
And I'm fighting this feeling
This will be the death to me
I'm the Queen of Apologys
And I'm fighting this feeling
but it never stops, never stops
I'm still waiting
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
I keep trying
And I'm fighting this feeling
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
I keep trying
This will be the death to me
This will be the death to me
I'm the Queen of Apologys
Now you got me on my knees
This will be the death to me
Tic tac, time goes by, hits me so suddenly
How you knock me off my feet
I'm the Queen of Apologys
Now I'm fighting this feeling
but it never stops, never stops
I'm still waiting
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
I keep trying
I blame no one, but myself
so honestly, is this how it's gonna be?
Tell me, who's the enemy?
Monkey on my back keeps me so desperatly
How you got me on my knees
This will be the death to me
So sick of this feeling
but it never stops, never stops
I'm still waiting
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
You see, I'm still shaking
And I'm fighting this feeling
This will be the death to me
I'm the Queen of Apologys
And I'm fighting this feeling
but it never stops, never stops
I'm still waiting
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
I keep trying
And I'm fighting this feeling
And I'm stuck with this feeling
will it ever stop, ever stop?
I keep trying
This will be the death to me
This will be the death to me
I'm the Queen of Apologys
Lyrics submitted by voltaire7
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that's sad. this is a great song.
Anyway...
I'm thinking the narrator is a partier who looks for one night stands rather than a real relationship. The "quick fix" is what she wants, but once she gets it, she realizes that there's more to a relationship than the sex. She fears that she'll never learn from her mistakes and just keep repeating them ("This will be the death of me") She may often find herself in these senarios with taken men/women, or she just hates the situation so much she feels guilty for it- making her the "Queen of Apology" (think about it- what do you do when you are guilty? You apologize) She tries to fight her way out of this trap, but keeps falling back in.