So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
So it's a private education,
and it's not getting any easier,
but if it's any indication,
well I feel a little weaker now.
And it's a private education,
so I present you with your degree.
A degree of separation goes a long long way when schooling me.
So forgive me for what I have done,
and forgive me for what I might do,
and redeem me to everyone,
as I submit myself to you.
You could wear me 'round like your best dress and I, I wouldn't mind,
you could ruin me in one long night and then cast me aside,
you could turn your mind back to your past and I couldn't change your heart,
or kiss your scars,
or find your heat there in the dark, dark, dark, dark, dark.
So it's a private education,
and I'm feeling like an innocent.
Though I feel a little guilty now,
since I've sinned against myself again.
So forgive me for what I have done,
and forgive me for what I might do,
and redeem me to everyone,
as I submit myself to you.
You could wear me 'round like your best dress and I, I wouldn't mind.
You could ruin me in one long night and then cast me aside,
you could turn your mind back to your past and I couldn't change your heart,
or kiss your scars,
or find your heat there in the dark.
I wanna learn you good,
I wanna read your text,
I wanna cut you deeper,
wanna cut you best.
Now my cautionary ways are swept aside,
I fear you not,
all my past disclaimers and alibis,
I've now forgot,
you could turn your mind back to your past and I couldn't change your heart,
or kiss your scars,
or find your heat there in the dark, dark, dark.
So it's a private education,
and it's not getting any cheaper,
I wear the cost around like a wound, and I'll try not to bleed all over you.
and it's not getting any easier,
but if it's any indication,
well I feel a little weaker now.
And it's a private education,
so I present you with your degree.
A degree of separation goes a long long way when schooling me.
So forgive me for what I have done,
and forgive me for what I might do,
and redeem me to everyone,
as I submit myself to you.
You could wear me 'round like your best dress and I, I wouldn't mind,
you could ruin me in one long night and then cast me aside,
you could turn your mind back to your past and I couldn't change your heart,
or kiss your scars,
or find your heat there in the dark, dark, dark, dark, dark.
So it's a private education,
and I'm feeling like an innocent.
Though I feel a little guilty now,
since I've sinned against myself again.
So forgive me for what I have done,
and forgive me for what I might do,
and redeem me to everyone,
as I submit myself to you.
You could wear me 'round like your best dress and I, I wouldn't mind.
You could ruin me in one long night and then cast me aside,
you could turn your mind back to your past and I couldn't change your heart,
or kiss your scars,
or find your heat there in the dark.
I wanna learn you good,
I wanna read your text,
I wanna cut you deeper,
wanna cut you best.
Now my cautionary ways are swept aside,
I fear you not,
all my past disclaimers and alibis,
I've now forgot,
you could turn your mind back to your past and I couldn't change your heart,
or kiss your scars,
or find your heat there in the dark, dark, dark.
So it's a private education,
and it's not getting any cheaper,
I wear the cost around like a wound, and I'll try not to bleed all over you.
Lyrics submitted by enigmatic_jess
Private Education Lyrics as written by Joshua Pyke
Lyrics © Hipgnosis Songs Group
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This song totally touches me, its about being so into someone that you would do anything, even let them treat you like crap, just to be with them, but that someone doesn't love you back even though you would give them everything and eventually you have to deal with that. The ending is so sad, "I wear the cost around like a wound, and I'll try not to bleed all over you." it's like, this hurts so much, but I'll try not to effect you because it's not your fault.
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Me too.. it's possibly my favourite of all time.
Simple. The fear of falling for someone and being hurt for your troubles.
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this all about falling for someone who's not feeling the same as you in the relationship. Putting your heart out there again and again. Being knocked back promising never to get hurt by that person ever and then going back all over again even though you know how they feel. Thats how i see it, kinda a been there done that thing
This song is amazing, it means so much to me. I can see where he's coming from, i'm in the same situation. I love a boy, i'd do anything, even though i know he dosnt love me back. The ironic thing is, that boy got is who introduced me to josh pykes music in the first place. x
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Lixy, you put it beautifully. :)