Lost

Simple and completely beautiful. Lotta's vocals are so bittersweet.

It seems to be a pretty obvious meaning to me. She has lost the great love of her life and cannot accept or deal with the overwhelming grief of him leaving. She cannot understand why he has gone and left her when they had this amazing deep love. She tries to live each day, but keeps regressing while she continues to let herself hold onto the thought of him day in and day out. The solitude she is left with has driven her to obsession and madness as her worst fears (him leaving) have consumed her soul.

I can relate to this more than I would like to admit...

I've been listening to the song more recently. To me it feels like she's all alone and the only company she has is herself or a person she made up in her head (possible a personality disorder) that she holds on to like a crutch just to get through life.

Lost in myself I cannot feel Control I aim I stumble and fall Believing you that's why I loose Emotionless I'm falling apart

She's talking about the loss of feelings she thinks she doesn't have anymore and thinks she can't feel the pain anymore. Yet believing in her imaginary friend (or other self) she keeps falling into pieces because there isn't really anyone there to catch her when she falls.

Reaching for you but falling through Confused I am I'm loosing ground Embraced by you in my own mind Bolding on to the sweet beliefs

She tries to reach inside herself (her other self or in this case for me it's her heart) but fails to hold on and falls down where there is nothing to stop her. Her other self holds on to her, choosing to fall with her and let her believe in her 'sweet beliefs' instead of facing the world.

Calling out my own reality screaming out all my fears Overwhelming by all insanity sacrificed a thousand tears Calling out in pain my weaknesses fighting to get back whole Overwhelmed by madness lost in the darkness of my soul

The world on the other hand, is calling her out by using her fears as bait, she's overwhelmed by the truth that she can't accept and has no more tears to offer. Her other self is falling apart and using her weaknesses to get her to wake up in order to merge with her and become one again or fall into the darkness of her soul.

Woke up alone but in my heart You were there whispering my name Want to go back to the same old place Where we belonged until death do us part

She wakes up and can't find her other half, who appears in her heart and whispers her name (their name as they are now one again). Now she feels she can move on, go back to her happier days with her other half until death takes her away.

I close my eyes and numb my heart Wish for sleep but only face my truth Embraced by you in my own mind Holding on to the sweet beliefs

Until then she refuses to see anything beyond her own blinding beliefs and closes her heart to keep the pain from breaking her again. She wishes for 'sleep' (to be die in peace and never wake up again) but must face the challenges in her life first by also accepting the truth she couldn't accept before. Just when she feels she wants to give in her other self holds her from within her mind as if to reassure her and they hold on to what is left of those beliefs.