Trapped Inside My Pride

I'm pushing myself to everything I seem to hear
Expecting it to end up somwhere near
Using my pride as my simple excuses
But as I let it out it forms into a thing so useless
Thinking all I'm doing for myself is willingly
But then I see that its only killing me
And when things fall over I want them built back the same
Not wanting to see the instance of any change
I don't want to vision that inner thought in my mind
Because I think if its not there than I'll be fine
These thoughts trap me deep inside my pride
I can't remove them or see where they hide
(Thoughts like these return to me)
Memories I have come to fear
Won't let me make them disappear
(Now I find that I can barely breathe)
I look down at the faces on my hand
Speaking words that my them sink in my plan
Things aren't the way they should be when I pretend
After I crumble everything up I can't make it better again
My pride has me seeing things that don't exist
Seduicing me to the edge of my fate before I slip
Never giving thought to words that come out my throat
I'm buckling everyone down without much hope
I can't seem to edit out the mistakes in me
Swallowing me in just as its overtaking me
These thoughts trap me deep inside my pride
I can't remove them or see where they hide
(Thoughts like these return to me)
Memories I have come to fear
Won't let me make them disappear
(Now I find that I can barely breathe)
I look into jaded mirror
And I hate what I see
As my eyes track in so close
I find that jaded person is me
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These thoughts trap me deep inside my pride
I can't remove them or see where they hide
(Thoughts like these return to me)
Memories I have come to fear
Won't let me make them disappear
(Now I find that I can barely breathe)
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Trapped
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