How To Save A Life

this song reminds be of a recent breakup. my bf was depressed and also addicted to pot. he had been off for almost two months.. the majority of the time we'd been together.. and started back up to make him feel better and plunged deeper into his depression. if you reverse the "he's" and "you's" in most of the first stanza it fits completely. and the morning after he broke up with me i woke up bawling for three hours.. when i turned on the radio this was the first song to come on. he wasnt just my boyfriend but my best friend as well.

the first verse fits literally what went on that night. the talking on the phone. he always told me i never needed to worry about breaking up cuz he loved me. but i always did. that night before he called to break up the window thing went on in the car. the direction and everything.

step one he says we need to talk you walk he says sit down it's just a talk you smile politely back at him (i was trying to be nice all night) he stares politely right on through
some sort of window to his right (he kinda ignored me) as you go left and he stays right (i withdrew and he didnt do anything) between the lines of fear and blame (i feared he would break up with me all the time, he blamed me, i blamed him and myself) and you begin to wonder why you came (i didnt know what i was doing with him that night. at all)

where did I go wrong, I lost a friend (he was a friend first, and we became closer in the relationship. i dont know what i did wrong. everyone says its nothing but it seems like there may have been SOMETHING) somewhere along in the bitterness (he was pretty bitter about the whole thing. any depression or breakup is usually bitter anyway but in this case it was just the entire situation) and I would have stayed up with you all night (i would have done ANYTHING to fix it but he said it wouldnt work) had I known how to save a life (the relationship had become my life. his friends were my friends. we did sooo much together)

let him know that you know best cause after all you do know best (with the addiction making his depression worse, he told me he knew i was probably right but that in his mind he couldnt see that way) try to slip past his defense without granting innocence (i tried to get to him without bringing up anything that bring up the touchy subject of innocence [in terms of me and in terms of him] in front of him or let him think its ok. cuz its not) lay down a list of what is wrong the things you've told him all along (i brought up everything we would always talk about. everything that he said was wrong i told him what ive told him all along.. how we could make it work, etc.) and pray to God he hears you and pray to God he hears you (this boy is the most stubborn ever. i still barely got through to him even though i tried my hardest)

where did I go wrong, I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life

as he begins to raise his voice you lower yours and grant him one last choice drive until you lose the road or break with the ones you've followed (as he was yelling at me for trying to keep him to try in the relationship because i KNEW it was possible but he didnt want to try.. i told him he couldnt keep on going like he was. that we couldnt. that we could make it work but he would have to try to break his habits as well. but still he didnt go for any of it and just got angrier) he will do one of two things he will admit to everything or he'll say he's just not the same (he said he's just not the same. that the relationship wasnt the same as it was before. that he was bored with it.. sick of it in fact.. [another sign of depression, mind you, is ending relationships]) and you'll begin to wonder why you came (i began to wonder why i was even trying to keep him.. why i was there talking to him to start with)

where did I go wrong, I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life...

it fits perfectly. and its insane. im still tripped out. im trying to listen to it to get over him.