The Calendar, the Energy (If This is You Then Woe is Me)

I’m looking at a photograph of heaven
And the personnel they let in
Expose the souls they're not afraid to show
I’ll analyze the world and all its people
Concluding everyone is evil
And I more so than anyone
I know I have my faults
But I’d so much rather look at yours
Pretend I have none at all
But who am I kidding, anyway?
I won't give you the satisfaction
Of seeing me when I’m like this
'Cause honestly you wouldn't like this
So close your eyes and watch me hide
I won't give you the satisfaction
Of seeing me broken and bleeding
A life that's barely still breathing
So close your eyes and watch me hide
Watch me hide
So I’ll wander off where no one else can find me
And the silence will remind me
That this is more sobering than I thought
I could hold on to the old familiar lie that is
Pretending nothing's wrong
But who am I kidding, anyway?
And I thought it'd be okay
In a sense to not to end the pain
Sometimes as you grow smarter
Your heart grows harder
The stupid things that those around us do
Often make us angry
And teach us not to follow suit
Just be sure your heart stays full
not emptied out and cynical
Lately yourself is someone you can't be
I say if this is you then woe is me