This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Johnny Falls
He throws his hands
Into the air, into these walls
He's freakin' out
He's got a gun
He'll get his way
He'll have his fun
You make a mess
You bruise my name
Try to cut me down with every word you say
If you wreck my day
If you wreck my day
You son of a bitch you're gonna get some
Now I'm tired
Of this stupid game
Running in circles from you again
Don't blame me
For what I gotta do
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Johnny runs
He shuts his eyes
He only sees
From nine to five
Don't let him down
He's got a gun
He'll get his way
He'll have his fun
All you wannabes
Don't have what it takes
To take a shot at me
To put me in my place
If you wreck my day
If you wreck my day
You son of a bitch you're gonna get some
Now I'm tired
Of this stupid game
Running in circles from you again
Don't blame me
For what I gotta do
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Don't push me
Don't blame me
Or you'll be sorry
Am I getting through
I won't back down
As of right now
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
See me cry
See me smile
See me fall
See me cryin'
Now I'm tired
Of this stupid game
Running in circles from you again
Don't blame me
For what I gotta do
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Don't push me
Don't blame me
Or you'll be sorry
Am I getting through
I won't back down
As of right now
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah
He throws his hands
Into the air, into these walls
He's freakin' out
He's got a gun
He'll get his way
He'll have his fun
You make a mess
You bruise my name
Try to cut me down with every word you say
If you wreck my day
If you wreck my day
You son of a bitch you're gonna get some
Now I'm tired
Of this stupid game
Running in circles from you again
Don't blame me
For what I gotta do
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Johnny runs
He shuts his eyes
He only sees
From nine to five
Don't let him down
He's got a gun
He'll get his way
He'll have his fun
All you wannabes
Don't have what it takes
To take a shot at me
To put me in my place
If you wreck my day
If you wreck my day
You son of a bitch you're gonna get some
Now I'm tired
Of this stupid game
Running in circles from you again
Don't blame me
For what I gotta do
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Don't push me
Don't blame me
Or you'll be sorry
Am I getting through
I won't back down
As of right now
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
See me cry
See me smile
See me fall
See me cryin'
Now I'm tired
Of this stupid game
Running in circles from you again
Don't blame me
For what I gotta do
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Don't push me
Don't blame me
Or you'll be sorry
Am I getting through
I won't back down
As of right now
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah, wo-ah, wo-ah
I won't hate myself to be loved by you
Wo-ah
Lyrics submitted by iLUVJACOBhoggard
Johnny Falls Lyrics as written by Chris Crippin Brian Howes
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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I don't think it's limited to bullies and mean girls, even though it does apply to that. I think it's about (as said earlier) any time you try to change yourself to accomodate someone else, realize you've always hated them anyway, and decided "well, fuck you."
I had a job where I was supposed to lie to people. Call center, 8 hour shift, tell people someone was going to come fix something, or someone would call them back to negotiate a refund, or whatever, even though I knew full well these things would never happen. I could get better at lying, or I could say "I just realized what I was really hired for and I'm not going to be here tomorrow morning."
I'm pretty sure it's relevant, because willful lying pisses me off, and I would hate myself if I willfully lied to people for a living.