In Two

I am split in two
Sometime i wanna be a saint i wanna wallow in my sleaze
One minute i'm a goddess and the next a bitch, diseased
Today i want to save the world and tomorrow watch it burn
I come by my lessons painfully then forget all that i've learned
When i want to
I want to i want to when i want to i want to
I know what i want i want everything
I know what i want i want nothing
I want to make you happy then beat the smile from your face
I will become your downfall and your saving fucking grace
I want to be a virgin i want to fuck you til you bleed
I will worship you then spit in your face
I don't want who i need
but i want you
I want you I want you when i want yo i want you
I know what i want i want everything
I know what i want i want nothing
I wish for happiness when my mind becomes my hell
But sometimes there's comfort in my pain 'cause i know it so well
I want to slay the demons that still haunt me day and night
But sometimes im grateful for my fear it reminds me im alive
But i hate to
I hate to I hate to but i hate be afraid
No matter who you think you see it's only ever half of me
Inside my head is deafening please help me
All i want is for this to stop i need for this to stop
All i want is for this to stop i need all this to stop please god
Just make it stop god damn it
Never stops fuck me just make it...
And i pray for some silence
Why am i two I's?
The pain is slowly killing me
The war that others cannot see
Its what i go through
'Cause i am
In two
I am split in two