What do they see when they look at me?
Who are they to judge me
If they never spoke with me
Never looked without laughing
Never tried to see, see me

I can't believe that it is only me
The person to hate
The only left out
I can't believe how they can be so mean
If they could feel the brutal stings of their words
And the bitter cold when they laugh

Once more I'm running
Running away, I must hide
Can't take anymore
A fight to free me from an endless struggle with life
Running, tell me how far should I go
If they're all the same
This fight
I'm fighting my way through

I don't really want to be like them
The way they behave
The way that they live
I don't really need someone
No people like that
Someone in a world with wars and respite
A world without the feeling

I must be running
Running away, I must hide
Can't take anymore
A fight to free me from an endless struggle with life
Running, tell me how far should I go
If they're all the same
This fight
I'm fighting my way through


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    At first the song seems to be about bulling. This song is taken from the conceptalbum Invisible Circles in which we follow a child who grows up without knowing any love. The child seems to be bullied (maybe by other kids) and she tells us how much their words can hurt.

    In the chorus she tells how she sees this as a struggle of life and we can even detect suicidal thoughts in the words "A fight to free me from an endless struggle with life " and "Can't take anymore" But it could also mean that this is the turning point in which she stops running away from her bullies and starts to fight them. But since the rest of the album doesn't continue about that, I guess that doesn't happen.

    In the third paragraph (after the chorus) the child starts to explain that she'd never want to be like her bullies - or like anyone who supports this "world with wars and respite".

    Concluding I say the song is about an outcast who wants to stand up against her opponents and become better than them - a better person. Whoch complies exactly with the title of the song :P

    But thinking more and more about it.. In the concept of the album.. Maybe her bullies aren't just random kids, but her very own parents, who never take her serious etc. which would make it even crueler..

    But I'm not certain since that doesn't really fit in with the title and setting and stuff..

    Digital Deceit being the next track on the album would maybe shed another life on the subject.. At the one hand it support the theory that her bullies are her parents, since in DD she flees for them, but at the other hand it could support the 'random kids' theory as well since that song is basically about someone who tries to be tougher than sje really is in her own fantasy world.. but meh.. that's another topic.

    SnowballInExtremumon April 19, 2006   Link
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    I think you are right. Since you made such a fine and perfect anylisis a would like to bring up how this song can effect you: Everytime I hear it I start to cry, but I am also training my voice so I one day can hit the right notes and sing this song beautifully. Since I dont have internet as in DD I use music and singing instead, as my wall (!) It works, and I want to thank After Forever for making this song because it has helped me so much! Does any After Forever fan own the same experiences?

    borderline.ladyon November 26, 2007   Link
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    It COULD be her parents, but I think it's kids. Because most kids don't realise how much words can hurt (I would know) and her parents showed open contempt for her and the description does not fit for parents.

    Anway, this is my favourite After Forever ballad. Even better than Intrinsic!

    reumerenon July 18, 2009   Link

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