So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Stressed out and messed up
I did it again
The final push is always the hardest
Still I'm hanging on
Please don't let me fall
I think I need you
I said some things that probably hurt
But none of them were true
Broken and torn up
What will it take to mend
Here we lie on broken ground
Can't we stand up again
Please don't leave me down
I only want to be with you
I said some things I can't take back
But still I want to try to make it through
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
I treated you like people from the past
I should have known better
You don't deserve to be treated like them
I should show you I think you're special
I don't want to put my scars on you
They're mine and I'm the one who should deal
I don't want to be the one to drag you down
I want to be the one to kiss away your tears
No words can explain how I feel when I see your face
I just want you to know whatever happens I'm here
I could never express how much I care for you
Even if you decide to go I love the way you made me feel
So thank you and I'm sorry
I never wanted you to feel an ounce of pain
And for me to be the one who caused it
I'd do anything to take that feeling away
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
Someday you'll understand the things I couldn't say
I want to tell you right now but it has to wait
Someday you'll understand everything
I promise and I'm sorry
I did it again
The final push is always the hardest
Still I'm hanging on
Please don't let me fall
I think I need you
I said some things that probably hurt
But none of them were true
Broken and torn up
What will it take to mend
Here we lie on broken ground
Can't we stand up again
Please don't leave me down
I only want to be with you
I said some things I can't take back
But still I want to try to make it through
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
I treated you like people from the past
I should have known better
You don't deserve to be treated like them
I should show you I think you're special
I don't want to put my scars on you
They're mine and I'm the one who should deal
I don't want to be the one to drag you down
I want to be the one to kiss away your tears
No words can explain how I feel when I see your face
I just want you to know whatever happens I'm here
I could never express how much I care for you
Even if you decide to go I love the way you made me feel
So thank you and I'm sorry
I never wanted you to feel an ounce of pain
And for me to be the one who caused it
I'd do anything to take that feeling away
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
Someday you'll understand the things I couldn't say
I want to tell you right now but it has to wait
Someday you'll understand everything
I promise and I'm sorry
Lyrics submitted by NothingFinal
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O wow, this looks like such an amazong song, I almost cried when I read it.