Everything I once had
The bar on first Avenue, we went there solely for you
So you can flirt with my best friend
Kiss a girl, tell me why you're laughing

I won't hold on, I can't hold on to this
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out
In my bed for six long months
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out
In my bed for six long months
Well I won't hold on, to this

February, Valentine's Day
Did my best to avoid the red clichés
So you dumped me on the subway
On my way to work at nine in the morning
Everybody else is holding bouquets
Now I'm holding my face in the basement
Scratching away for any trace
Of affection you will leave
Falling victim to the public's prey

Well I won't hold on, no I can't hold on, I won't hold on to this
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out
In my bed for six long months
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out
In my bed
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out
In my bed for six long months
Oh, I won't hold on to this

Anyone is suitable for you I, for you I guess tonight
Anyone is suitable for you I guess
You weren't fazed
It's over with
You my beautiful

You weren't fazed
It's over with
You my beautiful
Your beautiful blue and white
Your beautiful blue and white


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    i love that extra verse in it. it just gives it a something special from the other version.

    thesewallsicreateon January 09, 2006   Link
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    I love the honorary title and I personally think this version is better than the other but that is debatable. It reminds me of my ex, though i dont really know what its about. great song though.

    fading_like_a_roseon October 02, 2006   Link
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    personally i heard this version after i heard the lp version i love how much rawer the music is and i do love the extra verse but this may just be because i havent heard it as much as the other parts but yeah i love both versions and cant say which more

    blackboxxlyingon June 16, 2007   Link
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    i definitely like this version better, i never noticed that there were two different versions.. and honestly i don't even know which one i've been listening to for weeks now.

    such a great song.

    joyinfaithon December 09, 2007   Link
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    & the more i let the extra verse sink in.. the more i cannot understand why you would take out such a amazing section of a song.

    joyinfaithon December 10, 2007   Link
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    moar soul? one of my favorites.

    rowsofhouseson August 21, 2009   Link

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