Merry Christmas, I'm Cheating

Merry Christmas, I'm Cheating
And I have been for some time
I would say that I'm sorry
But it's in my blood
Merry Christmas, I'm cheating
I can't get her out of my mind
I would say that I'm sorry
But it's too much fun
So when you sleep in our bed tonight
Know that it is shared sometimes
On the basis of moderation
I divide my time
Well, I've waited to tell you 'cause I can't handle your screams
And all that comes with that, tears and all the aftermath
Merry Christmas, I'm cheating
Well I guess I hid the signs
Now you know something about me
After all this time
And I can't live without her
And how she waits for my next line
I'm just jealous of freedom
That I left behind
We were foolish together
I would fix this but I can't
There is something about her
That you'll never have
And I've waited to tell you 'cause I can't handle your screams
And all that comes with that, tears and all...
Just a victim of consequence
Well at least you're my second best
I'm the victim here, if you've noticed dear
You don't appeal to all the needs I have
Merry Christmas, I'm cheating
But it's only in my mind
You know I'll always love you.. at convenient times