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I've been dreaming for so long
To find a meaning to understand
The secret of life
Why am I here to try again?
Will I always, will you always
See the truth when it stares you in the face?
Will I ever, will I never free myself
Breaking these chains?
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back, it's my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live 'til it's undone
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way
I've been living for so long
Many seasons have passed me by
I've seen kingdoms trough ages
Rise and fall, I've seen it all
I've seen the horror, I've seen the wonders
Happening just in front of my eyes
Will I ever, will I never free myself by making it right?
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back, it's my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live 'til it's undone
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way
Jillian, our dream ended long ago
All our stories and all our glory I held so dear
We won't be together
For ever and ever, no more tears
I'll always be here 'til the end
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back, it's my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live 'til it's undone
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way
To find a meaning to understand
The secret of life
Why am I here to try again?
Will I always, will you always
See the truth when it stares you in the face?
Will I ever, will I never free myself
Breaking these chains?
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back, it's my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live 'til it's undone
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way
I've been living for so long
Many seasons have passed me by
I've seen kingdoms trough ages
Rise and fall, I've seen it all
I've seen the horror, I've seen the wonders
Happening just in front of my eyes
Will I ever, will I never free myself by making it right?
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back, it's my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live 'til it's undone
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way
Jillian, our dream ended long ago
All our stories and all our glory I held so dear
We won't be together
For ever and ever, no more tears
I'll always be here 'til the end
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back, it's my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live 'til it's undone
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way
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As several people have said, this song is based on the Deverry Series by Katherine Kerr and I know this is true because Sharen Den Adel said so when Within Temptation performed live at Astoria in 2007 and I was about 5 feet away from the stage at the time.
The song is written from the point of view of an old man called Nevyn (Translates a "No One") who in his youth was engaged to the most beautiful girl in Deverry, called Brangwen. Unfortunetly, due to various things going wrong, Brangwen ends up dead and Nevyn blames himself.
Nevyn swares an oath that he won't rest until he has repaid his debts to Brangwen, so the Lords of Wyrds grant him an unusualy long life so he can do this. Eventualy Brangwen in reborn as are various others who were involved in the tragedy, but it takes several life-times to get things remotley sorted and by this time Nevyn is an old man and Brangwen has been reincarnated as a young woman called Jill (Gylian) which is why the song sounds so regretful.
...I'm not sure how the story ends because I've only got to book 3 (The Bristling Wood: Dawnspell) but it's all very confusing and the story will flit from a past life-time to the present life-time and people who were involved in the past (Like when Brangwen was reborn as Lyssa and she has a son. Her son goes off to study the Dweomer - or sorcery - with Nevyn) will show up in the present life-time and help out in various ways.
Any questions?
Obsidian Winter
You couldn't be more specific! :-) I knew what the song was about but not that detailed! ;-) I just have a question : The man is reicarnated too or he has just longevity??? Send it to me as a PM ok? Thanks in advance and well done for your interpretention! ^_^
I am currently on the 15th book of the series and of course the last book. I read most of the series about 15 years ago but this was before the last books were published. I have always loved these books. In fact I found out about this song while looking at the entry for the Deverry cycle on Wikipedia. The song is beautiful although Jill's name in the book is Gilyan, it is pronounced the same as the song title. <br /> The Wikipedia article is pretty good for explaining the series so I won't try. There is also a table of incarnations both on Wikipedia and the author's own website that helps when you are reading the book. I find that the Wikipedia one is actually more complete that the Author's. The flashbacks in the books are there to give background to what is happening in the part of the story that deals with the "current events. It never confused me but other have complained about the flashbacks being confusing. <br /> That said this is a spoiler so don't read further if you don't want to know. It's not much of a spoiler since upon looking at the table of incarnations you could figure it out but ymmv. Nevyn does finally manage to keep his vow. He dies after some 400 years of life and reincarnates. His next life is harder and he himself has a tough time as he remembers being a Master of his craft and now he can't even do the basic stuff. It's frustrating for him and almost turns bad. I won't say any more so you have to read the book to find out what happens but in that life at least he gets the girl. Actually I love that even some of the bad guys in previous books realize their past sins and make amends. I started to admire some characters that I hated in other books. It's very satisfying.
i kno.. within temptation is one of the best goth bands out there.. compared to all the crap that's out now!!! and i hate how no one really knos about them, i'm from america and im the only one who i kno that knows about them... i love this band and this is an awesome songs.. (all there songs are awesome)
yeah i found it , i was right this song is about the book zilverdolk (silverdagger) van Katharine Kerr.
and someone above here was pretty close bacause he said it was about reincarnation. the book is about a guy who is turned immortal as a punishment until he made his wrong doings right again, so he is forced to live for ages. He lives fot centuries and he sees reincarnations (a magic abbility of his) of people he knew. jillian (or as it is written in the book: Gylian) is a girl he loved. and he meets her in several incarnations over like a thousand years.
so i was right , this song is about a book and as i already suspected the I person is immortal
People, this song used to be called Orff (NOT ORPH) because the chorus is based on part of Carl Orff's O Fortuna from his Carmina Burana. You may have heard O Fortuna before in commercials, but unless you listen to classical music, you won't know exactly what I'm talking about. Listen to it:
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my god, why there's that much comments for WT songs!? geez, dudes, u don't know what do you loose..
I got introduced to WT by a friend. We are pretty much the only ones who know about it here in NZ. I read they are from Holland.. so I asked the German exchange students about them.. and they said WT arent that popular! That suprises me.. because I think they are quite good to be honest.
Don't worry, you're not the only ones in NZ that like them :D Me and my boyfriend reeeally like them. Too bad we live on a couple of islands so far away lol, we'll never get their concerts. I also love nightwish and kamelot, heard of them? I'm from Dunedin btw, where are you from?
yea i like them too. Hastings NZ here.<br /> I heard them as a suggestion on jango.com.<br /> Love her voice and love the band
yea i like them too. Hastings NZ here.<br /> I heard them as a suggestion on jango.com.<br /> Love her voice and love the band
I got it from my friend who lives over in Ireland... she said she doesn't know how nobody over in the USA doesn't know who they are. They fuckin kick ass nods I'm sure I'm the only person here in ND who knows who they are ^_^;;
this song used to be called orph i had a live demo if it somewhere but i lost it, it had different words in most parts of the song, i wonder why they changed the title to jillian
Well they seem to have picked up in popularity now, well certainly in the UK they are getting a bit more coverage.
I think the spelling for this song was 'Orff' before, dunno what that means. Maybe just a random word while they came up with the proper title.
i have introduced WT to alot of my pplz... and they seem to like them ... and they h8 gothic bands ....