Natasha

been lonesome two years since she disappeared
i'm at the park where she was
last seen
a vast green clearing
wrapped up in maple trees
spilling the morning rain
from their leaves
i used to walk here
with a girl seventeen
at the time mistress
of seventeen smiles
sublime with flaming locks
of red in autumn
and burning locks
of orange in the summertime
we were solemn and
awkward that last night together
she laid by my side
staring into starless
skies black as fallen angel feathers
i stared into the forest pretending
not to see the hangmen she was hiding in her eyes of serpent green
she said there was another
i refused to believe her
i'd thought we'd kiss
till our tongues tied together
i'd thought we'd kiss
till our tongues tied together
all my loving memories
became scenes of frenzied slaughter
my hands became cruel talons
as they moved to destroy her
as they moved to destroy her
my hands became cruel talons
as they moved to destroy her
as they moved to destroy her
my hands
became cruel talons
as they moved
to destroy her
as they moved to destroy her
her neck breaks
like a toy
in a careless
child's
grip
my tears
rained down
into dead eyes
and splashed
upon her
lifeless lips
down
upon
her lifeless lips
i put her
in the ground like a flower
i put her
in the ground like a flower
i put her
in the ground like a flower
i am standing in that same spot today
where my angel's empty shell last laid
and as my tears began to well up once more
i see a path into the tree line
that i'd never seen before
i follow it down
into a ravine
find a hole in the earth
framed in the roots of a birch tree
subtle echoes of her voice
speaking words I've never heard
but the way she hissed her "s"'s
i knew it had to be her
i smell honeysuckle
then opium
two of her signature scents
i pull aside
all the thistles and
mesmerized i make my descent
as i crawl further inside
the light slowly dies
and the dirt begins to feel like her skin
i tremble as i drag my fingers down the walls
caressing her sweet flesh again
i'm slipping downwards
trying so hard not to fall
slipping
on the blood
that's seeping
from the walls
suddenly
i'm surrounded
by a thousand
of her eyes
bathing the tunnel
in a strange
green light
the eyes
show me pictures
like ghostly
television screens
all her thrashing
final struggles
and her ravaged
corpse serene
the tunnel
is closing
behind me
pressing me
further
and further
down
i'm being swallowed
by her
earth
and consumed
by her ground
by her ground
the end
is moving
into sight
i gasp
and i scream
as i see
her lovely
mouth
five times
the size
of me
her lips
curl
into a grin
around her
crooked
gnashing
teeth
i'm pulverized
and devoured
in the jaws
of a girl
seventeen
in the jaws
of a girl
seventeen