Well my friends hate me, for what I’ve become. You see I’ve been trying love, and not focusing on my life.
But this morning, I took off all of my clothes and cleaned my skin clear, but the stench of you, no it doesn’t disappear,
So I just wait, in my lonely house, no no no I have no clout to put your pictures up in an art gallery.
So I go out, and place my feet downtown, and the people watch me drink myself to bars and death constantly.

And then, ask "why you’re doing this boy? When there’s so much more to prove"
Well, she's never coming back, but I have to finish this half, because I paid four bucks a glass.
And it's also the only thing that could be, sticking around.

And I bought cocaine from my friend just the other day, you know just to let my memory fade so when you come to my place....
My heart will beat, just as loud as a kick drum; cause you know when you talk to much it's like music playing.
And it only crossed in my thoughts when you left; you see I get so depressed, when you’re lying to my face. And I think we'd be were cheap
If you just let me hold you then we could spell out the truth.

And if you do this to me again, I might have a childish fit.
And you won’t find me attractive as you did; no you need a man, someone on their feet, with high self esteem...
And never blames depression, for the way he's feeling... because that's how I’m feeling.

So if I, told you... I found another love... well you know, just this once it was right after you ran to his heart wire house.
We were dancing or drinking downtown, the lights were blinking so loud, that for once I couldn’t hear what a girl adored.
and I collapsed, into the gutter of K street... that’s when I knew my mistakes made me, and I found you’re more than incomplete.
So if all this lie was just all a bit of truth, would you still chase me like I do, when you’re constantly wrapped in the sheets?

We are a fairy tale that failed, and I constantly keep reading it.
So I am the ugliest thing that could ever grow up to be of some kind of thing...
And you know how perfect we could be...


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    After five years of being a fan of Conor Oberst & BE, I can tell this is not Bright Eyes, but I can also tell this band wishes they were.

    I just downloaded this song out of curiousity, and I mean it's not actually that bad, but the intensity of the copying is fucking ridiculous.

    Eurgh :\

    & if I see another "I COPIED OFF MY FRIEND WHO ALSO HAS THIS SCREENAME AND I ONLY LIKE TWO SONGS BUT I'M! At the disco"... I will have to rip someone's head off.

    maemion February 12, 2006   Link

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