I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I'd thought it'd be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
(On my own!)
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I'd thought it'd be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
(On my own!)
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
Add your thoughts
Log in now to tell us what you think this song means.
Don’t have an account? Create an account with SongMeanings to post comments, submit lyrics, and more. It’s super easy, we promise!
Thus making you better off on your own.
Personally, I think it has a lot to do with alienation, depression, and like someone else said not being able to fit in. Sometimes trying to explain yourself to someone else means absolutely nothing, your thoughts mean shit and no one believes you. It gets to a point where you feel like you're better off alone, and you feel like you can handle it all because in the end no one gives a shit.
"I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it"
They tried so hard to be perfect and everything everyone wanted them to be but it was never enough.
"I thought it'd be easy but no one believes me I meant all the things I said"
They told someone how they were feeling but no one believed them. They thought it was for attention but they meant it all.
"If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know"
If they just believed him, he'd tell them everything. He'd try and get help.
"Just to see if it wouldn't show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own"
He's crying out for help, he wants it desperately but no one helped and he gave up hoping someone would. He realized he was better off on his own.
"This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting"
No ones there for him and his suicidal thoughts are so tempting
"I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
But nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have"
He doesn't know how he got to place, that everything is so messed up and he's so sad and alone. He's so far gone that he thinks nothing can save him. All he has his is thoughts.
I feel like I can relate to this song so much. It has such meaning and I feel like a lot of teen can relate! Fantastic song!
"I tried to be perfect" very obvious.
"But nothing was worth it," it is about coming to your senses and realizing it is not worth losing your health, your friends, people's trust and more.
"I don't believe it makes me real." the unrealistic goals you force yourself to reach.
"I thought it'd be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said." you think you can reach out to people and ask for help, but eating disorders are seen as simply extreme dieting or/and attention seeking, so you are ignored and judged, and left alone once again.
"If you believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own." This whole verse explains the disordered's dilemma:once you find someone who believes you and will try to help you, you cannot part from the eating disorder, so you have to push them away. You lie and cheat and do things you don't expect from yourself and eventually are left alone, 'as you wanted'
"This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting," perfect explanation of how when you are alone, you sink even deeper in your despair and disordered thoughts become too prominent.
"I don't know how it got so bad." eating disorders start simple and innocent, and spiral out of control:they consume you before you even figure out what's wrong with you.
"Sometimes it's so crazy,
That nothing can save me," it is about the frustration that comes from not being able to recover. Nothing's working, you're still sick, it's killing you.
"But it's the only thing that I have." eating disorders have the tendency to arise as a replacement of something missing:lack of care and love, lack of control you have over your life, etc...
I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
"Nothing could ever be so wrong." it is very unnatural to your body to starve it, or force it's food back up, or force more food into it than it can handle, and more. It is unnatural to your mind, too. It's just wrong, abusing one of the main things you need to stay alive.
"It's hard to believe me," explains how we DO know it's hard to understand, believe that this is an actual problem:one that can kill you. But it is.
"It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along." complete, full recovery from eating disorders are rare, (recovery is possible, but not completely) and you know this, you know that something that is taking over your life so harsh will never completely go away.
This song is so close to my heart. It sums up everything so perfectly. And it makes me feel a bit less alone.
"This place is so empty.
My thoughts are so tempting.
I don't know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it's so crazy
but nothing can save me
but it's the only thing that I have."
I dunno, maybe it just me.