Invisible

well this is good, i'm his assistant chief and i do anything for him!! i mean he likes me! and one thing he let me sing on stage last summerrrrr!!

This is what my interpretation is like, not even close to perfect but hey I thought these things were as you wills?

From the get go we are given the impression that someone is reflecting on how things used to be peaceful. Right now though, that person's mind is cluttered with "chaos", which in my opinion is about how their lives fell apart destructively. They then go on to say that although they are not dead, they cannot claim to be alive either. To me this is a way of saying that they are trapped between life and death, as a result cannot be said to exist(Invisible). It's always on their mind, how they are not sure about where life is taking them, whether it's somewhere better or even worse than before. Next we can grasp that the individual believes that if one does not care, it doesn't really make a difference whether they are invisible or not, on the other hand it may be for the best because it would allow them to hide. "Everyone wants to be invisible" can be incisive sarcasm or how others just don't see how hard it is to be in that situation, not fully appreciating what the person has to cope with. As things stand at this point, the problem seems to have no conspicuous solution. The person attempts to show people through "signs" that they would like to be left alone to themselves, and "I'm not low,I'm always high, I got nothing that's in my mind" is their way of hiding the problems under the tough demeanor they display. Unfortunately others don't seem to understand and are clueless about the predicament of the person on hand, what's worse is they even accuse the person of being shameful to be around. That see-mt to have done the trick, the desire to live has left entirely, and now the person is asking to be sold, one final humiliation as they can longer call anything their own. It is their belief that death is victorious and they can no longer hold it off, still the person is "too lame for this way" which roughly translate into "I don't deserve this". He is now prepared on giving up. The end.