Mellowed

Tunnel vision is slowly setting in.
Blocking out what I should be letting in
11 years I've seen through alcoholic eyes
Nothing here at all but lows disguised as highs
Days I don't remember now
Fading in and blacking out
Spiraling off and spiraling down and down and then
It's on again
And off again
I've mellowed, but it's taken so much time.
You never needed the fake that I was then
And no way would I wish him on you now
I'm so fucked up
11 years I've seen through alcoholic eyes
Nothing here at all but lows disguised as highs
Days I don't remember now
Fading in and blacking out
Spiraling off and spiraling down and down and then
It's off again and on again
Played out and pacified and completely compromised
Nothing left inside, but memories of lies
Days I don't remember now
Are fading in and filing out
Falling off and spiraling down and down and then
It's on again, put off again
I'm sorry but it doesn't matter now.
11 years I've seen through alcoholic eyes
Nothing here at all but lows disguised as highs
Days I don't remember now
Fading in and blacking out
Falling off and spiraling down and down and then.
It's on again and off again
I've mellowed, but it's taken so much time.
So much time
So much time
So much time
So much time
So much time
So much time
So much time
So much time