There's a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you,
But I hate myself instead.
There's a pair of dead eyes in the mirror looking back at me.
I guess it's wrong to live life so lifelessly.

Scars are tearing open along my palms and knees.
I guess that's what I should get for crawling back at your feet.
And now I'm feeling so down, that there's no God above.
No mercy for a soul that's just way too fucked up.

There's a pain in my chest growing stronger with every heartbeat.
Now there's nothing left of me,
but empty bottles of pills and Bacardi.
Yes, I guess it's wrong to live life.

Leave me here to die


Lyrics submitted by x_melancholy_x, edited by bayside311

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    "Scars are tearing open along my palms and knees. Guess that's what I should get for crawling back at your feet."

    Oh my God. Amazingly written.

    Just the depth in those lines is enough to send my head spinning.

    The fact that he's referring to them as "scars" could mean that it's happened several times before. How he's crawled on his hands and knees for her but she's hurt him every single time.

    Genius. Absolutely perfect in every sense of the word.

    MyObsessionWithFireon December 11, 2006   Link
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    i believe its a perspective about the people who were molested by Catholic priests. Look at the song title, that should just give it away. how "theres no god above" because of what happened to them, being depressed and trying to kill themselves by drinking and taking a bunch of pills, lossing faith in god because a man of god molested them. "i guess thats what i should get for crawling back at your feet" is like where they think its kind of thier fault it happened to em. just my thoughts on it

    jonahjon May 23, 2007   Link
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    what an amazing song. I'm surprised no one's commented on this song yet.

    tragiknownfacton May 26, 2004   Link
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    this song is incredible. bayside is..too amazing for words?

    angela got usedon June 26, 2004   Link
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    I'm sorry to be the one to tell you, but you've got the lyrics wrong. There's a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you, but I hate myself instead.There's a pair of dead eyes in the mirror looking back at me, I guess it's wrong to live life, SO LIFELESSLY. Scars are tearing open, along my palms and knees, guess thats what i should get for crawling back at your feet.and now i'm feeling so down, that theres no God above,and no mercy for a soul, thats just way too fucked up. There's a pain in my chest, growing stronger with every heartbeat. now there's nothing left of me, but empty bottles of pills and bicardi, yes i guess it's wrong to live life. leave me here to die.

    the lyrics u had totaly changed the meaning of the song, which is about a guy losing his faith in God.

    BrandNewIndiRockeron December 23, 2004   Link
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    I posted a correction for the lyrics, I love this song so much, it is one of my favorites. This is an amazing song. To me, this is about a guy who's had a breakup maybe and is treating himself really badly over it. Drinking, doing drugs..he's feeling numb and he's angry with her but he's taking it out on himself and is upset with himself about it. He's also

    saieaon May 09, 2005   Link
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    Blah. =/ He's also feeling like he's really fucked himself up because of it and there's no mercy because it's his fault he is, but yet he still feels something for them even though he knows it's wrong. Bayside IS TOO AMAZING FOR WORDS. They are who I have declared my musical god, a very high honor. I mean..some of their lyrics are simply and to the point ("there's a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you but I hate myself instead") but the simplicity just conveys the depth of the emotion so well. I mean they sing about things a lot of people experience while still expressing how serious they can be and not making the experiences seem like something everyone experiences and unimportant. I. Love. Bayside. They are an amazing band!

    saieaon May 09, 2005   Link
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    yea man this song is amazing but the lyrics shown just fucks up the meaning of the whole song

    madde2333on April 17, 2006   Link
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    god i love this song. its so sad yet so relatable

    madde2333on May 07, 2006   Link
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    my take on this song is that he was always a little screwed up, then someone really close to him betrayed him yet again and he became even more fucked up than he was before, and I dont think its so much about losing his faith as possibly thinking that he's too messed up for even god to help him. But then again, we all look at things differently due to our experiences.

    tdw_rockonon February 01, 2007   Link

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