My First Time

The attic was less to us than the cellar
As the bones like the attic let them have it
Let them stay in the attic
When they sometimes come down the stairs at night
And stand perplexed behind the door
And head bar to the bed
Brushing their chalky skull with chalky fingers
And sounds like the dry rattlin of a shutter
That’s when I sit up in the dark to say…
(Violent J)
The first time I ain’t even feel guilty
Never washed off, stayed bloody and filthy
Just laid there next to the kid all night
Kinda soakin it all in and feeling alright
I wasn’t even old enough to drive yet
It was hell
I had to put him on my handle bars
and dumped him down a well
I tried to feed off of that until I couldn’t anymore
And by my sixteenth birthday my total had grown to four
(Monoxide)
I ain't afraid of you
But be afraid of me
Cos when the lights go down there ain't no stopping me
Memories of my first real killin
They found her all tied up and just hangin from the ceiling
What I was feelin was just so dark and twisted
I couldn’t believe I just did this
Now I’m stuck in my very own private hell
Will I ever do it again? Time will tell!
My first time
I was in control until the blood
It was my first time
The bloody mess I had to clean up
It was my first time
I know this ain't right
It was my first time
I finally took someone else's life
(Shaggy)
Every time I lay my ass down to sleep
I pray the fuck these memories cease
Bloody face and find a brush take it
After the first ‘Uhh’ what was I thinking?
Just a piece of rope and a pair of hands
I was a man, but she kept talking man
Suffocation due to not breathing
I choked her for the very first time for no reason.
(Blaze)
It was eleven on my clock, I remember that much
In the grave yard, waitin for the dope man to show up
Ten minutes pass and there’s still no sign
Just then off in the night
I see some headlights
Car rolls by
Drivin slow and I dunno
I thought it was my folk
I ain't pulled a fourty four
They stopped the ride started blastin
The first time I didn’t pull the heat
Damn, this what happen?
My first time
I was in control until the blood
It was my first time
The bloody mess I had to clean up
It was my first time
I know this ain't right
It was my first time
I finally took someone elses life
(Madrox)
First time my knife touched skin and it ripped
Blood started flowin so quick
I just couldn’t quit
Kept stabbin till everything I seen was red
the pillows, the blankets, the walls
and even the bed
One color dominatin' everything like a temporary art
Am I the killer or artist with bloody heart?
Then I curled into a ball in the corner of the room
Feeling like a creep in the light of the moon
(ABK)
If I took this gun and put a hole in your chest
It won't compare to the first time I put someone to rest
Kinda like a dream but on a nightmare level
Everytime I think about it I can still hear the shovel,
Diggin' deep into the dirt to try and hide the pain
Knowing I got away with something I would regret in the end
I really shouldn’ta done it, but fuck it I did it
I mean the first person I killed was my first best friend
My first time
I was in control until the blood
It was my first time
The bloody mess I had to clean up
It was my first time
I know this aint right
It was my first time
I finally took someone elses life
(Someone else's life)
Someone else's life first
(Someone else's life)
Someone else's life first
(Someone else's life)
Someone else's life first
(Someone else's life)
Someone else's life first
(Someone else's life)