This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Wide awakened out of spinning
Round the safest orbit
You controlled the ordinary
I was grateful for it
Wide awake in the beginning
Trembling after the fall
Only half my world remembers
While the other half revolves
Cut off 'cause I can't remember
A face that could cut me deeper
But hearts could never leave me bleeding
Becoming the cause and burden
The lesson begins unlearning
And it has never been forgiving my dear
It's all too familiar
I've been here before
I'll carry this weight for your smallest reward
Because I'll continue to break down the door
Just let me in I swear
It will not be like before
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
Collecting the strangest conscience
Apathy returns it's offense
But only after I get moving
Relax and being the change
In time for the newest age
To help me find out what I'm missing in here
It's all too familiar
I've been here before
I'll carry this weight for your smallest reward
'Cause I'll continue to break down the door
Just let me in I swear
It will not be like before
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
I covered all the ground
'Til I uncovered our design
And every second I have spent
Has come to remind me in time
Wide awakened out of spinning
Round the safest orbit
You controlled the ordinary
I was grateful for it
I was grateful for it
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
Round the safest orbit
You controlled the ordinary
I was grateful for it
Wide awake in the beginning
Trembling after the fall
Only half my world remembers
While the other half revolves
Cut off 'cause I can't remember
A face that could cut me deeper
But hearts could never leave me bleeding
Becoming the cause and burden
The lesson begins unlearning
And it has never been forgiving my dear
It's all too familiar
I've been here before
I'll carry this weight for your smallest reward
Because I'll continue to break down the door
Just let me in I swear
It will not be like before
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
Collecting the strangest conscience
Apathy returns it's offense
But only after I get moving
Relax and being the change
In time for the newest age
To help me find out what I'm missing in here
It's all too familiar
I've been here before
I'll carry this weight for your smallest reward
'Cause I'll continue to break down the door
Just let me in I swear
It will not be like before
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
I covered all the ground
'Til I uncovered our design
And every second I have spent
Has come to remind me in time
Wide awakened out of spinning
Round the safest orbit
You controlled the ordinary
I was grateful for it
I was grateful for it
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel fine
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