I wake alone, in a woman's room I hardly know.
I wake alone and pretend that I am finally home.
The room is littered with her books and notebooks.
I imagine what they say, like,
'shoo fly, don't bother me."

And I can hardly get myself out of her bed,
For fear of never lying in this bed again.
Oh christ, I'm not that desperate am I?
Oh no - oh god I am.

How'd I end up here to begin with?
I don't know. why do I start what I can't finish?
Oh, please don't barrage me with he questions to all those ugly answers.
My ego's like my stomach
It keeps shitting what I feed it.
But maybe I don't want to finish anything anymore
Maybe I can wait in bed until she comes home and
Whispers,
"you're in my web now - I've come to wrap you up tight 'til it's time to bite down."

I wake alone in a woman's room I hardly know.
I wake alone and pretend that I am finally home.
Home


Lyrics submitted by ruben, edited by NBSrock, Upsides

The Recluse Lyrics as written by Gretta Mindy Cohn Clint Frederick Schnase

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    A few things:

    1. This absolutely about a one night stand.

    2. The Stomach shitting line is about the cause/effect relationship between "telling yourself" different things. For example "I'm not that lonely, I've just got to go out and be social more"

    3. The main inspiration for this song has to be sleeping with a random girl while on a long tour.

      Being on tour like Cursive is makes you feel like you don't have a home. You feel like your in some weird summer camp with your 4 closest friends that has seemingly no end, and a revolving group of new people you meet everyday.

    Waking up somewhere with out your bandmates is SO WEIRD the first night that you instantly feel removed from the "summer camp" and feel your home. It's such an odd, comforting feeling you end up staying at the girls house as long as you can, even though when the girl gets back home from work there's going to be a shit storm of emotions to sort out since you are literally leaving that day to go on to the next show.

    Just in general being on the road on tour is an incredibly lonely journey. Even though your constantly hanging with your friends, you are so wrapped up in moving from city to city that it's impossible to find a rhythm to "decompress" because you're rarely alone. And when you do find a chance to be alone, the feeling is often frightening.

    wheelzron July 21, 2009   Link
  • +1
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    "my ego's like my stomach, it keeps shitting what I feed it" lol I find that funny.

    pinkiscooldammiton June 13, 2003   Link
  • +1
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    this is probably one of my favorite cursive songs too... it sounds kind of 80's like the cure or something, it's so good.

    rrriloKILEYon June 24, 2003   Link
  • +1
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    morning after a one night stand. period. best cursive song though - definately not usually a huge fan of the band, but this one got me good.

    scarletbegonianbon June 21, 2004   Link
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    "You're in my web now, I've come to wrap you up tight until it's time to bite down" This makes me think of how a girl can make a guy fall in love without falling for him

    michelle__x3on November 04, 2008   Link
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    The line "you're in my web now, i'll wrap you up tight till its time to bite down" signifies how a female black widow mates with a male then kills him. This is all speaking symbolically, it seems to me this is a girl that he has gained feelings for and feels that she has him "trapped" in a way.

    mhs7amandaon August 02, 2010   Link
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    Definitely night after a one night stand, but you also have to consider the fact that he's acting out sexually because he wants a relationship... its like a drunken one night stand with a dash of rebound. He desperately wants someone to latch onto him... Quiet despair and rebellion... perfect description.

    LyricalDuplicityon September 10, 2011   Link
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    Thats one of my favorite quotes.

    I love this song.

    DeserveToBurnon June 15, 2003   Link
  • 0
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    when I first heard this song I loved it.. now i love cursive too. they're a great band.

    dontdickwithmemanon June 22, 2003   Link
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    this is probably one of my favorite cursive songs. almost my absolute favorite :)

    decemberon June 24, 2003   Link

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