This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
이제는 밥을 먹어도
눈물 없이는 삼키지 못해
억지로 먹고 먹어도 속이 늘 허전해
노래를 들어도 흥얼대지도 못해
영화를 봐도 내가 뭘 본 건지 기억 못해
밥도 잘 먹지 못해 네가 생각날까 봐
네 생각에 체할까 봐 네가 떠난 후로
오늘도 눈물로 하루를 먹고 살아
버스도 타지 못해 누가 날 욕할까 봐
우는 날 놀려댈까 봐 아무것도 못 해
너 없인 나 혼자 살지 못해
이제는 술을 마셔도
눈물 없이는 마시질 못해
아무리 병을 비워도 너만 더 생각해
살아서 뭐 해 넌 내 곁에 없는데
혼자 뭘 어째 아무것도 할 수 없는 난데
밥도 잘 먹지 못해 네가 생각날까 봐
네 생각에 체할까 봐 네가 떠난 후로
오늘도 눈물로 하루를 먹고 살아
버스도 타지 못해 누가 날 욕할까 봐
우는 날 놀려댈까 봐 아무것도 못 해
너 없인 나 혼자 살지 못해
너 없이 웃는 것도 난 못해
너 없이 걷는 것도 난 못해
아무것도 아무것도 못 해
내겐 네 사랑이 필요해
혼자 살아서 뭐 해
네가 더 잘 알잖아
너 없인 나 안 되잖아
너밖에 몰라서 너 없인
밥조차 먹지 못하는 나인데
차마 죽지도 못해
네가 돌아올까 봐 아무것도 못 해
오늘도 내일도 너만 원해
눈물 없이는 삼키지 못해
억지로 먹고 먹어도 속이 늘 허전해
노래를 들어도 흥얼대지도 못해
영화를 봐도 내가 뭘 본 건지 기억 못해
밥도 잘 먹지 못해 네가 생각날까 봐
네 생각에 체할까 봐 네가 떠난 후로
오늘도 눈물로 하루를 먹고 살아
버스도 타지 못해 누가 날 욕할까 봐
우는 날 놀려댈까 봐 아무것도 못 해
너 없인 나 혼자 살지 못해
이제는 술을 마셔도
눈물 없이는 마시질 못해
아무리 병을 비워도 너만 더 생각해
살아서 뭐 해 넌 내 곁에 없는데
혼자 뭘 어째 아무것도 할 수 없는 난데
밥도 잘 먹지 못해 네가 생각날까 봐
네 생각에 체할까 봐 네가 떠난 후로
오늘도 눈물로 하루를 먹고 살아
버스도 타지 못해 누가 날 욕할까 봐
우는 날 놀려댈까 봐 아무것도 못 해
너 없인 나 혼자 살지 못해
너 없이 웃는 것도 난 못해
너 없이 걷는 것도 난 못해
아무것도 아무것도 못 해
내겐 네 사랑이 필요해
혼자 살아서 뭐 해
네가 더 잘 알잖아
너 없인 나 안 되잖아
너밖에 몰라서 너 없인
밥조차 먹지 못하는 나인데
차마 죽지도 못해
네가 돌아올까 봐 아무것도 못 해
오늘도 내일도 너만 원해
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Curious - I don't know an extraordinary amount in terms of historical knowledge, so for those were saying this song contains inaccuracies, care to elaborate? The "taught Greeks and Romans" line is the only thing I can spot out without doing my research, because uh, the Roman Empire ended way before Timbuktu existed and was doing all the good stuff it was. Even the Byzantine Empire, which he may very well have meant, was pretty much Christian, so I don't think they were anywhere near Timbuktu either.
Aside from that, I still love Nas, and this is a pretty great commercially-friendly song. At least he makes an effort to spread knowledge, and the inspirational bits come with good intentions. Just don't kick the wrong knowledge, Mr. Jones, because that's no good.
"It was empires in Africa called Kush<br /> Timbuktu, where every race came to get books<br /> To learn from black teachers who taught Greeks and Romans"<br /> <br /> True, there was a Kingdom called Kush, and one called Timbuktu, however, Kush was not a center of learning, Timbuktu was, and Timbuktu was settled in the 10th century AD, long after Greeks and Romans and their respective empires had dimmed.<br /> <br /> "Gold was converted to money it all changed<br /> Money then became empowerment for Europeans"<br /> <br /> So, this part is confusing, if he means to say that no one had gold before visiting Timbuktu, he's simply wrong. If he means to say that exaggerated stories of the wealth of Africa and Timbuktu spurred European interests in the continent, he is right.<br /> <br /> "The Persian military invaded<br /> They heard about the gold, the teachings, and everything sacred<br /> Africa was almost robbed naked"<br /> <br /> No, actually, the Persian military invaded long before, around the time of Darius, conquered Egypt (not for very long though, as I recall), and obviously, well before Timbuktu. As for robbing Africa naked, even if you redefine Africa to mean "Egypt" he is still wrong. The Persians did not rob Egypt naked since a poor conquered country would mean more support from the Persian stocks, and a poor and starving country was more likely to rebel, the Persians normally left things be.<br /> <br /> "Slavery was money, so they began making slave ships"<br /> <br /> Yes, this is true, but doesn't share much relation with anything else he's said so far.<br /> <br /> "Egypt was the place that Alexander the Great went<br /> He was so shocked at the mountains with black faces<br /> Shot up they nose to impose what basically<br /> Still goes on today, you see?"<br /> <br /> Seriously, is he actually saying the Alexander the Great somehow shot off the nose of the Sphinx? If Alexander had cannons, the world would be a much different place right now, haha. <br /> <br /> So, there you go. Like I said, I like the message of pride and self-respect, but despise that Nas feels he has to revise history in order to give young black kids pride and self-respect. If you base these things on lies, I can't see anything good coming from it.
this is a really good song i like it alot i didn't even know it was a song untill my made me listen to this song soo thank
np :/
Well this song's meaning is really obvious. He's trying to get America's youth to be better people, instead of being taken in by sex and drugs. Good song.
ya kinda obvious. but what i think is smart is the furelise playing in the background. it makes a fantastic melody and rythm. Nas really knows how to convert political views into musical art!!!
Yeah.
Not only is he trying to tell kids to be better people, I felt he was also trying to shy them away from the evils of the music industry and the artists and images that promote those evils.
I LOVE nas! This song is amazing. He isn't rapping about how many times he has been shot or how many women he can have sex with in one night, in fact he is speaking out against this kind of thing. Can't stop playing it!!!
truongt41 you're a twat. Rap doesnt suck- I'm not a rap fan I'm an emo kid but theres no point dissing other peoples tastes just cause' you personally dont like it. I think this is a mental song, he goes a bit self-righteous at the end though- i think the fleur d'elise really empathsises that just cause' you come from the ghetto doesn't mean you're doomed to a life of crime.
are you self proclaimed emo?
I find this song rather disturbing. The songs message is a fine message, and one that more songs should proclaim (pride, self-respect, etc) however, the song itself, while trying to gain some cerebral credit through the use of Fur Elise in the background, is full of historical inaccuracies and exaggerations.