So Frustrated

So frustrated,
On a downward spiral.
Slipping, sliding, falling away,
I sit here cold and alone.
I sit here by myself,
Searching for answers.
Sitting, searching, all day long,
Finding only doubts.
I never said I wanted this
But you gave it to me anyway.
Never said i needed this
But the doubts grow stronger every day.
Forced upon me, so subtle and so sweet.
Thrust upon me, now I find myself beat.
It's tearing me up, it's leaving me empty.
Can't lie to myself, yet somehow I can't believe.
This tears me apart,
Tears me from the inside.
So I threw it aside,
Placed it on the shelf.
I'll struggle with it another day,
Just need a little time.
A little time to tell,
To tell myself it's fine
Please don't say how much it hurts you,
It's killing me to hear you cry.
I'm blocked from moving forward,
And I can't even explain why.
Forced upon me, so subtle and so sweet.
Thrust upon me, now I find myself beat.
It's tearing me up, it's leaving me empty.
Can't lie to myself, yet somehow I can't believe.
Forced upon me, so subtle and so sweet.
Thrust upon me, now I find myself beat.
It's tearing me up, it's leaving me empty
Can't lie to myself, yet somehow I can't believe.
I can't believe.