Hammer my skull, I am waiting til you return your suffering
In my mind, I see you, you're still broken and lost again

When you come back, I won't know you
We won't fit right like it was before
Time is truth, hard and cruel
And my heart has turned to stone
I crawled back in, I am hungry
I made my traps are set in space

We had been standing on these tracks,
all the winds never called us back.

We laid so long, eternal night,
In my heart it never left.
I'll stand here, you go on,
When you see me I'll be gone.
Every road brings us on the past is never forgiven
It is atoned


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    I love these lyrics.... im not exactly sure what they mean, but they feel so emotional, just like the song.

    Disposition_987on May 11, 2003   Link
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    I believe almost every Neurosis song has to do with specific aspects of transcendence and the struggles that come with it. The narrator seems to be talking to another half of himself, like an older way of thinking. Like a piece of the personality left then came back and doesn't fit with the rest of the self anymore.

    The final verse is that piece of the self telling rest of himself to go to the same place it went and it can integrate the new way of thinking. I don't know, that's just the I think about it. I don't know, the whole Sun that Never Sets album feels like one of those mushroom trips that completely changes your way of thinking.

    Is it Scott or Steve singing this song? I'm pretty sure it's Scott, but you can never be too sure, they sound so much alike.

    JofaGuhton November 01, 2006   Link
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    maybe they're both singing but i guess it's Scott at least this part he is singing: "We laid so long, eternal night, In my heart it never left. I'll stand here, you go on, When you see me I'll be gone. Every road brings us on the past is never forgiven It is atoned" that's for sure clearly hearable by the style of singing, unmistakable.

    Anyway a masterpiece of a Song by the best Band of them all!

    Aprophisthe1on April 02, 2009   Link
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    The song is about changing personality through atonement. "I am waiting til you return your suffering " - persona is waiting for the punishment. "When you come back, I won't know you " - signifies that after change is complete it's hard to make all the other parts of your personality to reform according to the change.

    "And my heart has turned to stone I crawled back in, I am hungry I made my traps are set in space" Changing is hard and sometimes on the way you return to your old fears and needs or new ones arise.

    ytriffyon May 02, 2009   Link
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    ytriffy has got it. The narrator is looking upon someone who must go through a transformative process ("return your suffering") in order to become atoned for past acts. It sounds from the personal attributes given by the narrator ("we laid so long, eternal night" & "We won't fit right like it was before"), it seems to have been a personal betrayal upon the narrator by the individual the narrator is referring to.

    shnugen17on May 20, 2009   Link
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    I think that this song is an attempt towards attonement itself. I think it means an apology, a very painful one, to people who you have hurt throughout your life, that you have hurt and never had the chance or were too proud to apologise, and now you're telling them that you regret and if you could take it back you would, but it's too late, for time moves forward perpetually.

    MarlonMoraison January 09, 2010   Link

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