Face black another shadow of innocence tainted
Gave back all the lights and glitter
Wrong track again and again is stings
Wish you all could feel like this
12 is for the reason of regret
9 is for the pain that I'm caused
Will strife ever cease? Someday

Fuck this mind that is made to hate
Complete the task of humility
Restrained from who they want me to be
That's what they want me to be
That is not quite good enough for me
Fuck you and your thoughts on me
Fuck you and your thoughts of me
Fuck you how can I not be me
Fuck you I will never let you take me
I will never be that good little one
I can never see what is so good about life

I can never change just who I am or what is I think I am doing
My hands fell down now I know I failed
You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale
Maybe I should just end all this right here
Would you like that?
Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded
I am staying here to betray all of you
Never failing me again
Cut a little, it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?

I'm going to save me
My eyes turn the color jade
I look at everyone around me
I am so sick of this place
Anyone and anything makes me sick
I just want to end it all
I return to my room walls white with black shades
Oh how would red look?
The reasons are not for your ears
The feelings are not for your heart
I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming
Can I find a way out besides this?

I need it
I want to be where you are
I miss you


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Jade Lyrics as written by Chris Spicuzza Andy Herrick

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    i've seen them play this song live twice now, and it's so touching, so emotional. i'm gunna say that this song, from what i hear, is definately about suicide. or not commiting rather. i've felt this way before, as so many people i'm sure have. you ponder suicide, but if you did go through with it, and you did kill yourself, you've let them win. and no matter how much the pain, you have to grind your teeth and bere through it all. "Maybe I should just end all this right here Would you like that? Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded I am staying here to betray all of you Never failing me again " to me, the whole song is right there. so emotional. peace.

    genociaon May 08, 2003   Link
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    Really deep.

    aliKHaton May 09, 2002   Link
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    this song is so long but the lyrics are really deep. my favorite Chimaira song i must say. the ending is a masterpiece, even though its hard to hear what Mark is saying becuz he's so quiet, sux that its so long though. still, great song

    GrinninVillain6on May 25, 2002   Link
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    i love the intro to this song. the guitars sound so cool. this is one of my favorite songs of all time.

    deftweezeron June 17, 2002   Link
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    this song is just absolutely amazing. its definitely one of my favorite songs of all time, ahem hence the name. and to see them play this live...it's an experience i'll never forget.

    xjadedxon September 15, 2002   Link
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    Wow great song, I never listened before but I saw your guys replies so I downloaded it. I love it really straight forward, deep shit. But 14 minutes long, jesus...

    I think alot of people have felt this way before.

    Muzzyon March 15, 2003   Link
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    this is my favorite chimaira-song.. simply amazing, and i like that it's long... it makes it all better, darker. i love long songs :P the intro and this part "Maybe I should just end all this right here. Would you like that?" it makes me shiver.

    (bad english, :P)

    inteon May 28, 2006   Link
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    I feel like I relate well to this song. I moved to a dead-end town, just about hate everyone here, I blame someone inparticular for living here (seriously, Alaskans are a bunch of posers) and I miss somone very much and wish to be where they are. All in all, great FRICKEN song, I love the vocal and guitar work. They really made something epic here.

    Cheers, Tom

    tjhardrockeron June 02, 2006   Link
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    this song means the world to me...i listend to it frequently during some very...eh..dark times in my life..i believe the song is about an ex that he misses deeply and cant live with out her..."my eyes turn the color jade" showing his envy for the girls new lover

    poopytheclownon October 06, 2006   Link
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    i think this song is just keeping me alive...thanks for that, Mark...

    -=ViRUS=-on October 18, 2006   Link

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