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How to Disappear Completely Lyrics

That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
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If you ever get the urge to shut all of your friends out of your life and just work a job and come home to play counter-strike all night and listen to CD's....This song is absolutely not good for that. And speaking of, get the hell out of your house.

Comfortably Numbish...I believe Radiohead is the Pink Floyd of our generation. Good song, chilling, lonely...

You may be right; Radiohead is just that good.

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@thisboy wth? That is what I do, I go work, come home, drink rum, play Counter Strike Source and listen to CDs. What is wrong with that? And why do you say the song is not good for this?

@LuisRugamaGi are you seriously asking question for a comment which was posted 14 FUCKIN YEARS AGO?

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To me this song is the very definition of the word "existential". Yes, I know this is a term overused by pseudo-intellectuals, but I feel it's the best single word to encapsulate this song. "I'm not here, this isn't happening"... this song is so deeply based on the concept of 'me'. Who am I? What am I doing on this earth? Am I at all significant?.... No, I am not. I'm simply observing the events around me. Events created by a conglomeration of efforts by many others: fireworks, strobe lights, blown speakers. Any and every moment I've held dear (to myself) has passed like a blown firework.. but I find comfort in being small. Perhaps Thom wrote this song after singing for a stadium full of adoring Dubliners to find humility in being one human amongst billions.

The musical base of this song consists of simple open chords strummed on acoustic guitar with complex cascading orchestral melodies swirling around them.. kind of like each of us trying to live our own simple lives amongst the combined influences of all the people around us adding complexity (and confusion). I think the most beautiful moment of this song is towards the end (5:25) when Thom is holding out one of his reverb-laden falsetto notes in a brief moment of solidarity before the strings kick back in. This song is almost 6 minutes long, but somehow it seems to pass so much more quickly.

Completely agree, well put!

Not Valid

Excellent post.

great point of view. I would sign it.

and by the way you're right with the assumption that Thom wrote the song after singing for a stadium full of people - even many many more than one. Thom said that he wrote it after years of touring the album "OK Computer". They really "overtoured" the Album so that they couldn't hear it and were performing badly - thom's words! So the thought of him wanting to be just small, unimportant, an observer, not an actor really makes sense.

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This sums up a pretty big period of my life for me. It started back when I was about ten and didn't know songs like this existed, and it hasn't fully stopped. Finding this was bittersweet in a way, I didn't feel alone, but it hit home pretty hard, I didn't really know what to make of it. There are still days in which I kind of pretend to be missing. Sometimes I just want to be somewhere, anywhere but here, to be anyone but me. So I kind of start drifting away, lose myself in a book, a song, a daydream. In painting or sad attempts at making music. Because I can't deal with things, so I escape. That is what the dreamy quality of this song makes me think about. But no matter how hard I try, it's not real, it's not enough. I still feel reality looming over me, And the song is dream-like, yes- but with a dark atmosphere, with a hint of fear, of desperately clinging to the fantasy because the real world is scary and unfair and everything you ever cherish at some point in your life dies. I bet most will huff and smirk, then roll their eyes and keep scrolling before reading more than a handful of words, but I still wanted to share this, not sure why.

My Interpretation

Thank you Zekhmeton. You give me the perfect kindness i just needed, searched without knowning; At the moment the feelings from all over my memories an my shameful sadness wreck me.

You have just described me.

this is beautiful.. exactly the way i feel about the song... : (

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My feeling (only my own interpretation rather than Yorke's) when I listen to this is that he is done with this life, tired, exhausted, ready to "throw in the towel" as such. For me at least, there is no lower feeling you can experience than when you are truly connecting with this song. To me it's about being stuck in a hole so deep you don't feel you'll ever escape from it, out of it and back up into the real world. By "real world" I mean to fit back into society as a happy, functioning individual with goals, aspirations, a future in sight. The idea of such an existence seems foreign even if it was once your reality, so you want out. You want to disappear.

My Interpretation

@sjukhus01 All you described, Im none of that. I dont have a good job, could not go to school, im 32 with two kids and a wife, and I have no goals or aspirations. That is why My wife wants to leave me, she wants me to be someone i dont want to be. This song makes me disappear for 5 minutes and 45 seconds. That is why i play it everyday.

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Thom said an in interview that this was one of the only songs he really wrote for kid a. Almost all the others were basically drawn from a hat and pieced together cause of writers block. Just piecing together what was in his mind, otherwise he said he would of just thrown what he wrote away. He goes on to say this song was the mantra for the time during the ok computer touring when they were touring themselves stupid and on the verge of breaking up (thank god that didnt happen). And it makes a lot of sense when you look at it this way, they were being bled dry by the media and having their arms twisted. I get a lot of anger from this song, but also a sadness. sad that this is the way the world is but angry that there's nothing you can really do about it except put yourself somewhere else in your own head. It sounds like he is trying to convince himself that he's not here. In the beginning it sounds like it's working for him, it isn't so bad, but the more it carries on the more difficult it is to keep this state of mind.

This is definitely the inspiration of the song. "Strobe lights and blown speakers..." etc gives it away. I think most people have their own interpretations of this song based on the main lyric "I'm not here, this isn't happening" but Thom for sure wrote this from a place of desperation when dealing with the lunacy of having to live up to "best band on the planet" hype at the time.

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I have to disagree with so many of you who think this is a depressing song. This song is about depression, but it is a song of hope. The key is in the lyrics: In a little while I'll be gone The moments already passed Yeah it's gone The song then guides you through that period of dissonance with the string section at the end. Thom's voice (sounds like a cry) is barely audible throughout the period of dissonance, yet it is there. Then it rises out of the dissonance and is clear and loud again as the song closes. In essence we go through the moment of dissonance with him and then we are with him as it passes and is audibly gone. The lyrics set up the moment for us and then we audibly experience the moment and its passing. It just feels so personal to go through it with Thom, that is why this song is so meaningful. If you are depressed or have ever been depressed there is so much hope in the realization that it is truly just a moment in your life, and it will pass. The song is filled with hope and is brilliant!

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I have dissociative identity disorder, and to me, this relates a whole lot. This might not be Thoms intention, but that's definitely what it's about to me.

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I interpreted this song similarly, but differently than some of the comments below.

I have really bad anxiety, to the point that some days it is extremely hard to function. There seems to be nothing that can take your mind off of what is bothering you (why you are anxious - fears, breakups, life changes, etc). You go to parties, clubs, events, and celebrate holidays to try to distract yourself, but they never work. Yet society tells you that you have to keep living and being a "normal person," so you go through the motions like a ghost or empty shell when it'd just be easier if you disappeared.

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This song is one of my favourites. It really just makes you forget anything that's been bothering you. It's just one of those songs. Can't really be described, and everyone has a different opinion about it.

Yes, i comepletely agree with you, this song is undescribable:)

Not Valid

Indescribable* :)

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This is what it feels like when you're living a life you don't want to live, just going through the motions of something you would never choose on your own. Especially when you're doing it on little sleep.