So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Well I know I've let you down
And I guess I won't be seeing you around
I don't know what to say
I didn't mean to fuck up in this way
And now I'm all alone
Because I'm back on my own
Just give me one more chance
This time I swear it will be my last
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
But I got scared
And pretended not to care
I don't know what do say
I think I know why you look this way
It was something that I've said
Because it's still running through my head
And then I saw you yesterday
And maybe there's a way
That you'll come back with me to stay
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
I got scared and pretended not to care
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
I got scared and pretended not to care
And I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
I got scared and pretended not to care
And I guess I won't be seeing you around
I don't know what to say
I didn't mean to fuck up in this way
And now I'm all alone
Because I'm back on my own
Just give me one more chance
This time I swear it will be my last
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
But I got scared
And pretended not to care
I don't know what do say
I think I know why you look this way
It was something that I've said
Because it's still running through my head
And then I saw you yesterday
And maybe there's a way
That you'll come back with me to stay
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
I got scared and pretended not to care
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
I got scared and pretended not to care
And I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
I shouldn't have acted that way
I miss you tonight
I made up my mind
Cause you were the one
You were always fun
I got scared and pretended not to care
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Well, in my opinion this song is about being a young & maybe a little naive &/or introverted girl and finding yourself loving a man who is at first very charming, carefree & outgoing, and seems at first to be without limits, as in
"There was a time
you opened up every doorway
you didn't mind if everything
wasn't your way"
then that man starts to gradually become more introverted & shows their more possessive/obsessive side to you as the relationship progresses, even while they keep up the appearance of being carefree & outgoing to everyone else,
"Don't pull away
that goes against what you told me
I look in your eyes
I realize what you've sold me
is love in a vacuum"
so you confront them about the way they're acting and of course they deny it,
"I think you've changed
but you insist that
that's not true"
quite possibly they are an addict of some sort, my guess would be cocaine, &/or showing very obsessive behavior towards you (early on in the video for this song we see the man hanging a picture up, it is a very large portrait of Aimee & it is prominently displayed in his/their apartment for the duration of the song), thus their "love in a vacuum",
"You look so strange, so distant
that you're hardly you
Now I can see
how you have been acting different
You say it's me
but I know
that it isn't
it's love in a vacuum"
but still you are in love with them and don't want to leave them and you know that they are truly in love with you and they don't want you to leave them either, maybe they are convinced you can save them from themself, maybe they are so broken that the possibility of an overdose &/or suicide attempt is very real and you want to get through to them that their behavior not only dangerous but it is also just pissing you off and if they don't wise up they run the risk of loosing you, as in the lines
"You will be lonely
if you leave me alone", so you want to save them but can't get through to them due to the addiction &/or emotional problems they have,
"Love in a vacuum
and that's not enough
love in a vacuum
You will be lonely
you'll be the only one who feels this way
You will be lonely
if you leave me alone
You will be lonely
you'll be the only one who feels this way
it's just not enough"
you want them to understand that the love they are giving you is not enough when it is filtered through the vacuum of their drug addiction &/or emotional impairment,
"You will be lonely
you'll be the only one who feels this way
it's just not enough
and just wait
you will be lonely
Love in a vacuum
Love in a vacuum
and that's not enough
Love in a vacuum".
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Quintessential Aimee Mann.
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Step
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Van Halen
Van Halen
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shut up. you just sound like an ass. and if you're going to use words too large for your vocabulary...spell them right. "hypocrite"