Killing Me

one by one by one - one at a time
out of time, can't even afford to breath
decimate my own mind
one intent,
because it's now and forever
better hold your peace
increase, decrease, decease, release your mind
i'm staring right back at the face I hate
but not for long, forget the words, they're wrong
you can talk your shit just get your fucking story straight
killing me-
does the temptation turn you on?
killing me-
my only hope, salvation-gone
killing me-
internal confrontations spawn
killing me-
fucked up again, some friend
you'd better be ready for the worst-
expect the worst
modify me, misery, i've grown soft inside
retrogressing thought with time
enemy of god designed to piggy back-
pig, piggy, piggy back ride
all the way down, all the way down, all the way home
all the way back to where their father fell
i'd hesitate to talk cause I can feel it in me
i'm just too pussy-
i'd rather rot in heaven than in hell
killing me-suck it, suck it back further-
this must be my penalty,
a sneak attack murdering all my integrity
it's self destruction,
now i'm my own worst enemy
identity is killing me
killing me-why can't i see ahead of me
recently i'm thinking i don't need you anymore
killing me-i'll never be what i wanna be
no release 'cause i know i'm my own worst enemy
now it seems to be me
and it seems to me-
i am my own worst enemy
killing me-my own lonely pretentious philosophy