I Do Not Want This

This song is about depression, how it can take you over, and how sick they are of people telling them how they feel, like the other people understand, or even care. The person in this song is so overwhelmed they aren't sure they can last anymore...

I belive that this song is made of of four separate entities/states of mind, that are battling each other. Once one takes over, the other one wishes to drown it out and replace it, continuously.

I am losing ground... I stay inside my bed... -these are the states of mind which portray the current state of his being, his deep depression and fathlessness in all things and all people and their intentions.

I am always falling down... You would know, wouldn't you... -in this state of mind, he is being completely truthfull with himself, realizing he needs help, but is hesitant to hold on to this thought.

I do not want this... Don't you tell me how I feel... -here he flat out refuses he needs to be helped or that there is anyone who could sufficently offer him adequate help.

In the last few "I want..." lines, The narrator strives or dreams about a better life, one where he can SEE, KNOW and DO all he wishes to acomplish succesfully, and to ease his curiosity. He does not want to remain a mess and a failure.

In the line " I want to fuck everyone", he doesn't refer to a sexual act, but uses sex as a metaphor for getting to know all the people on a deep pesonal level, hoping that maybe, there are a few others like him... The 4th line of the song "I fear I am the only one who feels this way" forshadows this.

I find this song to be a cry for help from the protagonist, and for once, it is a physical calling. Perhaps he has called his ex who left him in Piggy, or an old friend, or he is trying to get therapy. He describes how he feels, what Mr. Self-Destruct/the Ruiner/the voice has turned him into. Unfortunately enough, the combination of his own selfishness and Mr. Self-Destruct's influences cause him to lash out when the person on the receiving end of his pleas tries to help (don't tell me that you care; don't you tell me how I feel). Thus, he only succeeds in going further down the spiral, as he only isolates himself more by driving off other people, which highly benefits the Ruiner. Finally, in the last part of the song, he expresses his discontent for his life at an all-time high. His mental stability has gone to hell, his life is boring, he does not want this, but he's only making himself sink faster.

This song can't mean a lot to anyone unless they've felt this way. Absolutely indescribable.

when i was in 8th grade in 1995, i was prescribed adderall for my ADD. it had an adverse effect on me and made me manic depressive. this song saved my life. no melodrama.

this song is so strong. i can relate to it also. sometimes your mind feels so screwed up and this song just fits it perfectly. no one really knows what youre REALLY thinking.

I stay inside my bed I have lived so many lives all in my head

living inside your head..feeling no connection to anything but everything in your head..

"I want to know everything, I want to be everywhere, I want to fuck everyone in the world, I want to do something that matters."

These are the thoughts that circle and chase me all fucking day, the thoughts that suffocate and hound me all damn night. What could I be doing right now? What should I focus on? What's the next thing I should do? How should I do that? Can I do that? I like that person, that person, that person, how can I be the person they would like? Wait, am I even into them? What am I doing with my life? Why do I work here? Should I go to college? When is a good time to do that? What do I want to study? EVERYTHING! NOTHING! EVERYONE! NO ONE!

I don't remember what it was like when my mind was normal and functional, when each thought wasn't the beginning of a motherfucking explosion of insanity. When I could plan or contemplate things without having a full-blown, rocking-back-and-forth meltdown.

At this point in the album, I think the 'char' is battling with either his drug addiction, and in doing so is loosing his love for the person who is trying to help him. as the end off this song dectates, the 'char' wants a life to live, and not wanting to be tied down as he feels like at that moment, hence the 'I want...' part.

A personal top choice song, because I've had been through a low point, and this song perfectly describes my feelings... Even though these feelings were wrong...

i think its just bout someone hating themselves, and all the sympathy in the world isn't gonna help, and it just is exausting to try and fight of all the 'good doers' coz they just make u feel worse...

The character Trent portrays in TDS is at a point where he's willing to ask for help, and he's close to letting someone else inside, but at the same time is defensive because he fears they won't accept him or give him the help he needs.