This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away
Diet of life, shelter without, the face that cannot see inside yours and mine
When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe
For our handle on this life, I don't believe this time
Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again
Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the slide that breaks a will
Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled?
It's a damn shame,
When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe
For our handle on this life, I don't believe this time
Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again
Diet of life, shelter without, the face that cannot see inside yours and mine
When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe
For our handle on this life, I don't believe this time
Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again
Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the slide that breaks a will
Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled?
It's a damn shame,
When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me breathe
For our handle on this life, I don't believe this time
Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again
Lyrics submitted by -L3tH4L-, edited by RonaldA1993, KingofDiamonds, EddieMonster82
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I could only agree with Johnny. Fuck you people and stop spamming your arguements. Talk about music and be chill with each other. That's exactly what it should be like.
Anyway, this song just really draws you in... Extremely dark. It shows how dark stories in life can be portrayed as also being really beautiful and self-assuring.
My whole thoughts on this song is about someone (possibly Phil) just coming down off of drugs, at the point where he can't make up his mind about what he should do. The thoughts that came through this person's head were very suicidal (hence, the song name) and he has question boiling in his mind if it would make him better to try and kill himself again or would he even survive the next time it happens? If he did, would anyone be affected? Those are the kinds of thoughts going through his head.
So once you go through this dark-oriented song, then it branches off into a total flurry of rage in Part 2, where the music and vocals go insane. Almost as if you were tricked 'cause the whole mood changes! Very sarcastic and obnoxious, but in a way, his seriousness of questioning is still there. Fucking can't make up his mind! Haha! Very fine progression Pantera left on this world.