I'll kill you in my dreams
I turn the other cheek during the day
I'll kill you all

the subculture of my dreams
is waiting for me to fall asleep
I know you're scared, you should be
I know you're scared


this attic of my mind
these feelings i can't hide
I can't share
I feel alone, ah yeah
the subconscious keeps me here
I fell in love with a balladeer
I saw your tongue, it licked my heart
they called you queer


They called you queer
They called you queer
They called you queer
They called you queer

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    General CommentOk, im a huge live fan. I think I got this song figured out. Ed is scared. The subconcious can be scary as fuck when there are things there you don't want to come to terms with. Ed is having some doubts here about his sexuality. Not because he's gay but because he's human and there really is no such thing as gay or straight. There is no definitive line there. He's scared and ashamed: "this attic of my mind these feelings i cant hide i cant share i feel alone". and then there is the reference to falling in love with a balladeer, and that word is rather old and back in the day there werent many female balladeers. the subconcious keeps me here i fell in live with a balladeer i saw your tounge it licked my heart they called you queer". the they called you queer reference is his ego reffering to his heart being licked and its yelling at the balladeer, calling it queer. because lets face it even the most open minded people like myself are a bit homo-phobic. Well thats my view on it. im sure it will make some people a bit uncomfortable but I know Live's music pretty well and my knowledge of the subconscious is at best mediocre. But this makes sense to me. lemme know what you think or you can call me a queer.
    WEBBon April 14, 2003   Link
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    General CommentThis song fucking rocks! is one of my fave songs by Live!
    grunge_loseron July 29, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthe hardest song on the album, and by far the closest thing to modern rock. this isnt necessarily a knock on it, since not all modern rock is poor. this song has the dips and hooks on it give it the feeling of wandering, and the lyrics add to that impression. because the guitar is sporadic and unpredictable to a discomfort, it adds to the mood of the song. the lyrics give a feeling of suppression and reclusiveness, like an outcast seen by ed as a marvel and by others as a freak.

    dollsteaktestmeaton August 15, 2002   Link
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    General CommentOkay im a huge live fan and I think I got this song down.
    Ed is in a battle with a part of himself he doesn't want to come to terms with. During the day its easy, but at night
    or whenever he is in his subconscious wether it be through dreaming or other means, this part of him is not so easy to ignore. i had this all typed up and it got deleted so ill just make it short. ed is questioning his sexuality. read the song or listed to it and keep that in mind.
    WEBBon April 14, 2003   Link
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    General CommentOn the DVD that came with Live's CD "Awake" their greatest hits, Ed give an interview. He says something like "I don't even know what half of Secret Samadhi means"....he went on to say "They were very friendly with the gardener."

    I'm gonna say this is definately one of the songs he was talking about haha.
    LiveFanon January 12, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI've always thought this song was about a homosexual ("they called you queer") who was constantly abused for his lifestyle. While he doesn't react directly to peoples' taunts ("I turn the other cheek during the day") he actually dreams of revenge ("I'll kill you all in my dreams").

    The verse describes that in this man's mind he's a lone hero driven by a ballad singer ("balladeer") whose song has touched him ("I saw your tongue, it licked my heart").
    Krendall2006on January 13, 2007   Link
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    General CommentTo sing of a love so strong, that every cell in my body aches for it when it is missing. Emotion so powerful it could make a grown man cry. I would then be a balladeer.

    If I were to sing a song of a longing, pining and paining for this love, if you dogs call me queer, I would curse you and in my dreams kill you.

    If you were to believe my songs, you may fall in love with my words, because they licked your heart because you know such love. Because you love more than is acceptable.

    The subconscious keep you there. In love like the balladeer.
    X-cideon September 12, 2007   Link
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    General CommentThis song is about Kurt Cobain.

    Kurt Cobain hated people and liked being asleep because then he wouldn't have to deal with them.

    Kurt Cobain was a singer/songwriter - a balladeer.

    When Kurt was in high school people called him queer.

    This was the first Live album to be released after Kurt's death.
    peroton April 12, 2010   Link
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    General CommentAll you people thinking this is about him struggling with his sexuality are way off the mark. He's straight, married for 23 years, and has 3 kids.

    The song is about being bullied, and dreaming of revenge. "I turn the other cheek during the day, I'll kill you all". The bullies call him queer. He's an artistic guy that's into music "I fell in love with a balladeer" and people push him around as a result. So he's alone, but in his imagination he's the hero that stands up to them, and the psycho that kills them to get revenge.

    It's pretty on the nose, IDK how anyone got "questioning his sexuality" out of it.
    DT2113on February 07, 2020   Link

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