This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
When I was seventeen I did what people told me
Did what my father said
And let my mother mold me
But that was a long ago
I'm in control, never gonna stop
Control, to get what I want
Control, I like to have a lot
Control, now I'm all grown up
First time I fell in love, I didn't know what hit me
So young and so naïve, I thought it would be easy
Now I know I got to take
Control, now I've got a lot
Control, to get what I want
Control, never gonna stop
Control, now I'm all grown up
Jam, woo woo
Rebel, that's right
I'm on my own
I'll call my own shots
Thank you
Got my own mind
I want to make my own decisions
When it has to do with my life, my life
I wanna be the one in control
So let me take you by the hand,
And lead you on this dance (control)
Is what I've got, because I do with chance
I don't wanna rule the world,
Just wanna run my life (ooh
So make your life a little easier
When you get the chance just take control
Control, now I've got a lot, ooh
Control, to get what I want
Control, never gonna stop
Control, now I'm all grown up, ooh
Free at last
Out here on my own
Ooh ooh ooh yeah, hee
Now control this
Uh control, that's right
Control, career moves
Control, I do what's right for me
Control, and me wants to groove, is that ok?
Yeah, ooh, control
I've got my own mind
Ooh baby
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
I've got my own mind
Wanna make my own decisions
When it has to do with my life
I wanna be the one in control
Hop to it
I'm in control, and I love it, hahaha, that's right
Control
Now I've got a lot
Control
Now I'm all grown up, ah
I'm in control, uh
I'm in control, ah
I'm in control, uh
Don't make me lose it
Control
Control, control, control
Control, control control, control, control
Control, control
Did what my father said
And let my mother mold me
But that was a long ago
I'm in control, never gonna stop
Control, to get what I want
Control, I like to have a lot
Control, now I'm all grown up
First time I fell in love, I didn't know what hit me
So young and so naïve, I thought it would be easy
Now I know I got to take
Control, now I've got a lot
Control, to get what I want
Control, never gonna stop
Control, now I'm all grown up
Jam, woo woo
Rebel, that's right
I'm on my own
I'll call my own shots
Thank you
Got my own mind
I want to make my own decisions
When it has to do with my life, my life
I wanna be the one in control
So let me take you by the hand,
And lead you on this dance (control)
Is what I've got, because I do with chance
I don't wanna rule the world,
Just wanna run my life (ooh
So make your life a little easier
When you get the chance just take control
Control, now I've got a lot, ooh
Control, to get what I want
Control, never gonna stop
Control, now I'm all grown up, ooh
Free at last
Out here on my own
Ooh ooh ooh yeah, hee
Now control this
Uh control, that's right
Control, career moves
Control, I do what's right for me
Control, and me wants to groove, is that ok?
Yeah, ooh, control
I've got my own mind
Ooh baby
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
I've got my own mind
Wanna make my own decisions
When it has to do with my life
I wanna be the one in control
Hop to it
I'm in control, and I love it, hahaha, that's right
Control
Now I've got a lot
Control
Now I'm all grown up, ah
I'm in control, uh
I'm in control, ah
I'm in control, uh
Don't make me lose it
Control
Control, control, control
Control, control control, control, control
Control, control
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i love this song i love janet so much. well this song is about her father trying to take control of her. well his father started the jackson five okay, well then the jackson five ssplit and michael had his own carrer, and joseph had nobody to control. janet was the only one left so he wanted to work in the music indestry with her. but janet jackson aint stuoid she knew what was going on, so she went on her own. like her lyrics
got own mind i wanna make my own desisions when it has to do with my life,my life i wanna be the one in control