A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Flexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard that this feeling
Won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, gotta feel at ease
Need to be
Free from pain, going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
And now I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, you can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Ooh, you can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe


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Never Ever Lyrics as written by Esmail Jazayeri, Sean Mather, Shaznay Lewis

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    What ever happend to these guys?

    vandalizedon May 09, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    This is a good song. And you're right vandalized, whatever did happen to these guys?

    zacsteron June 12, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    man i love this song...

    its so fucking cool.

    nodeon July 07, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    all saints broke up. the appeltons have made a duo, mel has released a single and shazney is working on a solo album. so there u go, that's what's happened 2 them.

    alice palaceon July 20, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    damn this song describes me Exactly right now..its weird how similar people can feel wen u always think ur alone in things...

    XxGodDeSsOfRoMexXon March 12, 2003   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    I used to LOVE this song, and I still do. I sng it all the time, LOL. It's about a girl who thought she traeted her boyfriend right, but he broke up with her out of nowhere. Now she's completely heartbroken, and she doesn't understand why he would do this to her. She's never felt so bad, and what makes things worse is that she dosn't know why he did what he did, and she's practically begging him just to explain to her what mahe him break up with her. She feels a simple explination from him will make her feel better, and take her "out of this black hole", and she will be able to learn from her mistakes and prevent something like this from hapenning in a future relationship.

    TrOoBaBiEeon April 13, 2003   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    This song has alot of meaning for me right now. I just been through a VERY difficult break up, and this song describes exactly how I feel so its nice to know that you arent alone in feeling like this

    CousinScampion October 09, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    this is one of those songs that was so popular back in the day and now weneva it is played everyone sings along. yay. ;)

    liv85on October 17, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    I love this song so much, I shouldn't, but I do.

    Prisoner.I.Wason September 04, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    my gf says this songs about me nice huh

    Silversideon August 28, 2007   Link

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