So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Life's never been so beautiful to me
a world that can't harmonize can compromise so everyone can see
if something's wrong then we all have to fight to make sure
the children sleep in beds with easy heads, not crying in the night
Dead ends arrive, and I get panicked when I don't understand
I get so nervous and so shaky when I can't comprehend
and fate keeps tightening all the boots that I thought I'd broke in
but I know that I will never see the outcome if I never begin
You've never been so beautiful to me
you stand in the sun with your flowing hair in the blowing air, laughing at me
we've stopped and we've started, at times we've even parted
but we realize that a love on hold is life turned cold and not the life for me
Dead ends arrive, and I get panicked when I don't understand
I get so nervous and so shaky when I can't comprehend
and fate keeps tightening all the boots that I thought I'd broke in
but I know that I will never see the outcome if I never begin
It's hard to say where joy starts and sadness ends
I couldn't tell you how the human race began
you know, romance is a slowdance, and you've got to understand
you've gotta take care of yourself before anyone else, my friend
Don't you know you've been so beautiful to me
sometimes I don't show it, but I know you know I know of all you've given to me
fixing parts, mending hearts
finding out that nothing's gonna stop us once we get out of the dark
Dead ends arrive, and I get panicked when I don't understand
I get so nervous and so shaky when I can't comprehend
and fate keeps tightening all the boots that I thought I'd broke in
but I know that I will never see the outcome if I never begin
so, let's begin
a world that can't harmonize can compromise so everyone can see
if something's wrong then we all have to fight to make sure
the children sleep in beds with easy heads, not crying in the night
Dead ends arrive, and I get panicked when I don't understand
I get so nervous and so shaky when I can't comprehend
and fate keeps tightening all the boots that I thought I'd broke in
but I know that I will never see the outcome if I never begin
You've never been so beautiful to me
you stand in the sun with your flowing hair in the blowing air, laughing at me
we've stopped and we've started, at times we've even parted
but we realize that a love on hold is life turned cold and not the life for me
Dead ends arrive, and I get panicked when I don't understand
I get so nervous and so shaky when I can't comprehend
and fate keeps tightening all the boots that I thought I'd broke in
but I know that I will never see the outcome if I never begin
It's hard to say where joy starts and sadness ends
I couldn't tell you how the human race began
you know, romance is a slowdance, and you've got to understand
you've gotta take care of yourself before anyone else, my friend
Don't you know you've been so beautiful to me
sometimes I don't show it, but I know you know I know of all you've given to me
fixing parts, mending hearts
finding out that nothing's gonna stop us once we get out of the dark
Dead ends arrive, and I get panicked when I don't understand
I get so nervous and so shaky when I can't comprehend
and fate keeps tightening all the boots that I thought I'd broke in
but I know that I will never see the outcome if I never begin
so, let's begin
Lyrics submitted by jimmyfoth
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