Can't Let Be

can i feel the way i do,
can i love while i'm not with you,
love's all that i want with you,
i want it returned, my love for you,
this is my last chance to free myself,
my last chance to reveal my health,
not here in mind, can't hear myself,
i'd rather have you than pain and wealth,
i can't remember when i felt calm,
i healed the old wounds, here new ones are,
i run to you but i can fly far,
so i still admire you from afar,
that's not enough for me no more,
i've never felt this way before,
never felt this strange before,
this is too strong to ignore,
i see myself, is this really me,
this failed me that i can't let be,
what is my problem that i cannot see,
or should it be i should not be,
it really rubs off on your sanity,
when reflections stare back straight through me,
am i what is what is really me,
this broken me that i can't let be?

suddenly,
i feel a light on the inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who relied on me,
a thank you to those who tried for me,
when i couldn't try for myself,
a light from above inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who trusted me,
a thank you to those who put love in me,
when i had no love for myself,

is one-way love a love that's real,
is this normal love that i feel,
or could it be me making a meal,
of these emotions that i feel,
every rejection i took from you,
another part of my heart was bruised,
it seemed that i was destined to lose,
i tried to hide my love, my truth,
it doesn't work no matter how you try,
true love always shines out bright,
no matter where you try to hide,
your love's exposed by that light,
this haunted part of me won't go away,
this haunted heart of me is here to stay,
my love for you won't go astray,
my love for you's my only way,
so many broken hearts, it's a mass of scar tissue,
but i know in my broken heart the one for me is you,
we might be together in another world, it's true,
scant solace, i still feel used,
when i see my reflection in the sea,
i see a failed version of me,
what can i do just to releive,
this diseased me that i can't let be?

suddenly,
i feel a light on the inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who relied on me,
a thank you to those who tried for me,
when i couldn't try for myself,
a light from above inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who trusted me,
a thank you to those who put love in me,
when i had no love for myself,

i look upon the wreckage of me,
and if i hadn't seen what i've seen,
i wonder what would have been,
if everything is as what it seems,
it amazes me when i think of the size,
of the universe, and the things it hides,
could future discoveries give rise,
to a reason for humanities lies,
i cover my scars with all-new wounds,
pleased to know i'll be gone soon,
pleased that my feelings i feel are true,
my unrequited love for you,
i look back on the troubled life of mine,
i see the reasons for my haunted eyes,
and i think back to beyond the time,
i submitted to the lies,
i look upon the sorry sight of me,
and all the bad things i have been,
was my destiny the way it seems,
no sense mourning what ought to be,
i see you staring straight through me,
i see the way my mind's diseased,
i look down and see this failed me,
this awful me that i can't let be,

suddenly,
i feel a light on the inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who relied on me,
a thank you to those who tried for me,
when i couldn't try for myself,
a light from above inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who trusted me,
a thank you to those who put love in me,
when i had no love for myself,

what makes living my life so hard,
even close things seem so far,
what thoughts stem from a broken heart,
paranoid everything falls apart,
i'm scared for my thoughts and for my sanity,
i saw my hope as it turned and it ran from me,
it left me so depressed and panicky,
i wish this world would set me free,
i remember the hate of my last attempt,
the love i feel for you's immense,
however more it grew intense,
my shackles refused even to relent,
you're wonderful, pretty and softly spoken,
i love you so though you're not local,
my love for you i can't tell vocal,
i gave you my heart, you left it all broken,
i feel myself all bruised and battered,
feel my cut blood hit the floor and splatter,
i foolishly thought you thought i mattered,
you hate my heart, you left it shattered,
i look back at me and what i've been,
i wonder if this is destiny,
to become this hated broken me,
this twisted me that i can't let be,

suddenly,
i feel a light on the inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who relied on me,
a thank you to those who tried for me,
when i couldn't try for myself,
a light from above inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who trusted me,
a thank you to those who put love in me,
when i had no love for myself,

suddenly,
i feel a light on the inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who relied on me,
a thank you to those who tried for me,
when i couldn't try for myself,
a light from above inside of me,
a guilty thanks to those who trusted me,
a thank you to those who put love in me,
when i had no love for myself!