Better Off Dead

I woke up surprised and disappointed to find out i was still me
last night should have killed me
took a shower, couldn't scrub it off
tried to scream I could only cough
I can't trust myself
To be my own friend.
Exhausted by the effort that it takes to breathe
The whole world is against me
that's what I believe
Don't waste your empathy on me
I'm through
puttin' one foot infront of the other
and I do -
wanna run for cover from the
moment I wake up until I'm
staring at the ceiling trying to sleep
I wonder if I have a soul to keep.
Voices in my head will not turn off
There's a heavy weight on top
of my chest today
I don't want it to go away because
The moment I let down my guard
Life will hit my twice as hard
my mistake I thought
That i could have just one day off from
Pushing boulders up steep hills
Playing in traffic for cheap thrills
I don't know what to do
That's why I'm telling you that
I am through
Putting one foot in front of the other
And I do -
wanna run for cover from the
moment I wake up until I'm
staring at the ceiling trying to sleep
I wonder If I have a soul to keep
Sometime's there's nothing on my mind
But everything at one time
Find me sliding backwards down
To where I don't wanna be found
I'm through
putting one foot infront of the other
and i do -
wanna run for cover
stop with these tests
give me some rest
my heart is beating right out of my chest
I do believe I have a soul to keep.