The face before me flies
Laughs at me inside
Masks are made to hide the glow
Shining eyes
Distance 'tween us grows
feeding lies

It's hard to start things over
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

Something I should say
It takes you every day
What you give is not alive
Today
Your soul served on a plate
Throw it away

It's hard to start things over
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

It's hard to start things over
Oh yeah
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

It's hard to start things over
Oh yeah
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

All the time

What the hell have I?
Little Pride


Lyrics submitted by Ice

What The Hell Have I song meanings
Add Your Thoughts

17 Comments

sort form View by:
  • +3
    General Comment

    It's about how you feel about yourself on the inside... like, it's about being depressed, and your reflection laughs at you, showing that it thinks you're bullshit, and the singer is feeling just really down, and wants to start his/her life over, but knows that it's really hard, and wonders if its worth it.

    Best AIC song ever.

    FellONblACKdaySon March 27, 2005   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    One of the lesser known and probably one of the best songs ever done by AiC.

    One of the key phrases here is - "its hard to start things over". I hope that it will make sense to anyone - when your relationship is over, quite often you still can't get over it and constantly think about how you could make it work. Its sad, but its the way that it goes - the problem is not so much in finding a new relationship, but getting over an old one, which is extremely difficult.

    Alastison May 08, 2006   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    this song to me is about getting back together it really speaks to me because my girlfriend and i broke up and them about two months later we got back together and we would fight alot and shit and it was hard to start things over and it broke us apart again i think that is what the song is talking about

    steveo8488on July 31, 2006   Link
  • +2
    My Interpretation

    A lot of people have been saying this song is about broken relationships, but my take on it is that it's about looking inward. Hell_I_call_my_head pretty much said it. It's about Lane (or perhaps Jerry) looking backward at what a mess they've made of their lives, their regrets, the things that they can't get over, the things that they have to hide from themselves and other people.

    Listen to this song thinking about what its like to have done something that you can never forgive yourself for, and trying to live with it despite nobody else forcing any guilt over you. When you've experienced complete regret, to the point where you hate yourself inside, that's when this song really makes sense.

    The two people mentioned aren't two people at all, they're one person and their own view of themselves. It's about someone being confronted by their own personal demons, they're at the end of the road thinking "what the fuck is my life now?" "how am I supposed to live with myself?" "what the hell have I done? What the fuck have I become?"

    SadDarkPlaceon April 16, 2016   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    When i first listened this song i felt so horrified, my first interpretation is about "getting things over" i passed for depression and i did away from society, from my family and from myself and i did things i would whish has not happend. Now i try to get over that, and sometimes its freaking hard, specially when i listen to my "demonds" Now some of my friends, we have not so much contact, sometimes its hard for me feel confort and just talk to people, i feel so guilty, some people just see me like i was a stranger like they felt the fire inside, our little pride, fear. So yeah i think is about broken relationships.

    Brok3nNutshellon September 18, 2019   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    The song couldn't be about anything other than a broken relationship trying to be brought back together. That could mean two people, or one person and perhaps drugs -- I lean more towards two people. The "fire" being felt "around us" represents the tension between the two when they are back around each other. After an intense fued between two people, when brought back together there is definitely a feeling of "fire" and intensity -- because the past is difficult to get around -- therefore every moment together feels unatural and anxious.

    davewah3on August 11, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    davewah3 hit the nail right on the freaking head. This song really speaks truths for my situation. My interpretation is a relationship between two people are trying to work out a strained relationship. But when they try, there is an awkwardness between them hence the "Distance 'tween us grows" and "You can feel the fire around us".

    022067on December 04, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    i think its about self reflection and is questioning what he's done with his life. it's all the more poignant now that layne has died. He's a great vocalist and will be sorely missed, his death was a tradgedy and Alice In Chains are gone forever.

    hell_i_call_my_headon May 02, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    The riff is brilliant, Jerry is amazing on this song. I think lyrics about relationships are so overrated... I'd explain my theory, but everyone seems content with every song ever written being about a relationship, so nevermind...

    Eliminationon May 12, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    This song was an awesome way to open Last Action Hero.

    thoughtlessclownon June 25, 2006   Link

Add your thoughts

Log in now to tell us what you think this song means.

Don’t have an account? Create an account with SongMeanings to post comments, submit lyrics, and more. It’s super easy, we promise!

More Featured Meanings

Album art
Son Şansın - Şarkı Sözleri
Hayalperest
This song seemingly tackles the methods of deception those who manipulate others use to get victims to follow their demands, as well as diverting attention away from important issues. They'll also use it as a means to convince people to hate or kill others by pretending acts of terrorism were committed by the enemy when the acts themselves were done by the masters of control to promote discrimination and hate. It also reinforces the idea that these manipulative forces operate in various locations, infiltrating everyday life without detection, and propagate any and everywhere. In general, it highlights the danger of hidden agendas, manipulation, and distraction, serving as a critique of those who exploit chaos and confusion to control and gain power, depicting a cautionary tale against falling into their traps. It encourages us to question the narratives presented to us and remain vigilant against manipulation in various parts of society.
Album art
Mountain Song
Jane's Addiction
Jane's Addiction vocalist Perry Farrell gives Adam Reader some heartfelt insight into Jane’s Addiction's hard rock manifesto "Mountain Song", which was the second single from their revolutionary album Nothing's Shocking. Mountain song was first recorded in 1986 and appeared on the soundtrack to the film Dudes starring Jon Cryer. The version on Nothing's Shocking was re-recorded in 1988. "'Mountain Song' was actually about... I hate to say it but... drugs. Climbing this mountain and getting as high as you can, and then coming down that mountain," reveals Farrell. "What it feels to descend from the mountain top... not easy at all. The ascension is tough but exhilarating. Getting down is... it's a real bummer. Drugs is not for everybody obviously. For me, I wanted to experience the heights, and the lows come along with it." "There's a part - 'Cash in now honey, cash in Miss Smith.' Miss Smith is my Mother; our last name was Smith. Cashing in when she cashed in her life. So... she decided that, to her... at that time, she was desperate. Life wasn't worth it for her, that was her opinion. Some people think, never take your life, and some people find that their life isn't worth living. She was in love with my Dad, and my Dad was not faithful to her, and it broke her heart. She was very desperate and she did something that I know she regrets."
Album art
Amazing
Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran tells a story of unsuccessfully trying to feel “Amazing.” This track is about the being weighed down by emotional stress despite valiant attempts to find some positivity in the situation. This track was written by Ed Sheeran from the perspective of his friend. From the track, we see this person fall deeper into the negative thoughts and slide further down the path of mental torment with every lyric.
Album art
American Town
Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran shares a short story of reconnecting with an old flame on “American Town.” The track is about a holiday Ed Sheeran spends with his countrywoman who resides in America. The two are back together after a long period apart, and get around to enjoying a bunch of fun activities while rekindling the flames of their romance.
Album art
Page
Ed Sheeran
There aren’t many things that’ll hurt more than giving love a chance against your better judgement only to have your heart crushed yet again. Ed Sheeran tells such a story on “Page.” On this track, he is devastated to have lost his lover and even more saddened by the feeling that he may never move on from this.