Before I Am Dead

How long have you
Been ready to bury me?
How many handfuls of
Dirt have you saved for me?
When did you give up?
Just lye down and forget
Not wanting to clash
Just wanting a peace
There is no peace
No way to stay neutral
There must be a fight
There must be a conflict
Stop wasting your words
Of pity and sorrow
No more sorry
No more hellos
Throw the dirt you hold
Let it fall to my head
Let a flower float down
And lay me to rest