Pain

i wish that i could say i am a perfect man
i wish sometimes that i would not be who i am
one day i decided i would think on this,
not knowing if faith and pain could co-exist:
could i ever on my own conceive
of someone i did not know, but i need?
i must be made to be at peace and communion
'cause there must be some place somehow from where I have fallen
Chorus
i find through every ounce of pain i feel
that my mind cannot deny that God is real
the inconsistency of what i say i should be
compared to what i am in actuallity
leaves me in conclusion that i know the way
though i am unable to always obey
nothing in this world has satisfied
my soul's hunger for a deeper life
the weight of my misdeeds were crushing, blinding me
i still live with pain inside but now i see
- Chorus -
the peices of my life are scattered on the floor
i stared at them till i could take no more
i do not deserve to be set free
forgiveness is what i despereately need
if it wasn't for the perfect blood was shed
would i not be dead inside but i live instead
- Chorus (2x) -
i know my faith's still here
believe through all my tears