The Gift Of Slumber

put out the lights,
and now forever will be here
just two more moments of death,
then all this sickness dissapears,
into a blackness,
and now I'll see this all go home,
and take its time with killing me,
this death is painless and so slow
and words were ringing through my heart,
and tearing open wounds apart,
like spanning lifetimes spent within,
its not what I wanted,
sleep isn't very far from now,
a gift sending all this out some how,
now it's all over and I've gone away.
I'm telling myself this is real,
how hard was all this world to feel,
I'm thinking all these lies will help,
the reasons why I fear myself
all these words that I write,
I spend weeks of saddened nights,
to take my heart down to ink,
and try to stay awake for this,
take my heart with you,
I'll never know tears from you,
and I'll kick and stay awake,
I am slumber's gift to take
and words were never more chemical
just one more peaceful wilting breath