| City High – What Would You Do Lyrics | 10 years ago |
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When I was 15, I heard this song for the first time. At that time, I had never imagined my life could be anything like this. From my personal experience, I was engaged to someone I was blindly in love with. Our son was planned. I am intelligent, educated, and attractive. It doesn't matter what great qualities I have, my son and I could never compete with my son's dad's drugs. I have been raising my son 100% on my own for 7 years now. Not a cent in support from "B". He's married two other women, and has left state. I was 22 with a 2 year old, no one I could trust or was willing to watch my son for extended period of time. I made a choice. I started dancing. I worked 12 hours a week making enough to pay bills and also enough time to raise my son. If you've never been there, you can't judge. I walked away from the dance life when I was 25. And I have attempted to do everything the right way. I couldn't keep a "real" job due to irresponsible baby sitters. Now, I'm 28 and am worse off by doing all the right things. I moved to a town where you have to be someone's relative to get a damn job. And I am the most motivated person you could ever meet. I have a terrific resume, but when there are no jobs, no family (I cut ties due to their drug and alcohol use and mistreatment towards their children), no support, no one I trust with my child, options are limited. I chose to have my child, "B" chose to walk away. I choose to make sure, even at the price of my "integrity" to never have my son look back and see how bad things really were. To look back with memories of us, not of some cheap self absorbed babysitter who sits him in front of the tv, or worse yet, abuse him while I'd be slaving away at a meaningless job making someone else rich. He will look back and see that I was ALWAYS there with him. It doesn't make me a bad person. And in no way would I be ashamed if my son ever found out. |
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