| The Verve – Bittersweet Symphony Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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Back in 1999 I was engaged to be married. A small wedding that would be held at this beautiful huge wooden lodge up in Oregon that sat alongside the Applegate river. The date was set to be day before Christmas eve 2000 That summer, July of 99 my Mother was diagnoised with terminal cancer. My Father, Grandmothers, Granddads, and my only sibling- my big brother had all died within just a few years before Mom got her death notice. I was a complete wreck and could not handle ANYTHING. My mom was all that mattered, and the blushing bride to be, I certainly was not. I just couldn't wrap my head around losing my Mom and my future in laws were so annoyed and very selfish (to say the least). Even worse, was I came from a completely different upbringing. My parents were so cool, admired by many, mostly I believe because of their free, natural, and spiritual and beautiful connection to eachother, our family unit, the earth, mother ocean, rolling around in the long green grass, waterfalls, sunsets, and in our home ....always great music of the 60's & 70's. They entertained people from all walks of life. More on the liberal side, hair cutters who from behind their chairs entertained with humor & compassion. Ah yes....the wonder years! Life was so perfect, all of us so IN LOVE. Lots of affection, hugs, & kisses everyday, and always a comforting I love you as we each were tucked into bed. Music was a huge part of our environment & and yes, my parents did make it to Woodstock. Speakers in every room of our house, all around outside (we had the old school wooden HOT TUB (oh yah)! Nudity was a given and no big deal at our country home on top of the hill. Dad crafted this kick ass out door shower so you could privately rinse your body under this huge old oak tree laced with so many lush strands of ivy, it was like a jungle!! EVERYBODY LOVED BEING A PART OF the magic my folks created. Total Peace. Many years of joy , fun, and seasons in the sun! Then, as the 80's came to a close, june 5th 1989 EVERYTHING changed. It was that particular day, just before dawn, my only brother, thier only son, tragically taken. The four of us together for the last time in that hospital room. As the life support was turned off, the three of us holding on to our once so perfect boy, his life draining from his body, the sound of the monitor, then the flatline....... I knew, even though not quite even an adult yet, that life as we knew it flat-lined as well. I watched it destroy my parents. My old man, my strenth, my best friend...we did manage to take a couple trips together, hitchhiking around Ireland, Cutting hair, & diving in the Great Barrier Reef, Australia.... Mom was inconsolable, all of a sudden someone I didn't even know. They both began to self destruct, no more peace parties, alcohol became the devil, for both, actually all three of us. I was in College 150 miles away, rang Dad in the middle of the night to let him know I would be coming home the following day ( as I often did on weekends. After a 52 min converation, his voice became faded and weak, he lowered himself to the floor, with me on the ohone, he died right then & there of a massive heart attack. He was 55. My unncle got there first and it was said that he was on the floor with the phone laying over his heart. That same day (night), just befor midnight my Nana (Pops mom) died too. Now here I was less than two years later standing behind the chair of my own salon numbly listening to all the girls and my clients go on & on about the big day ahead, my wedding. I was so out of it. Mom was told she had a year to live, I turned all plans over to the eager inlaws ( who couldn'y have made it more out of my Moms element, I think Ore. was like a 7 hour haul. I recall wondering what the hell I was doing marring into this right wing, ultra conservative, republican, farming family, who certainly had no interest in the life I had nearly 30 years before they laid eyes on me. Nothing was smooth, cool, or familiar to me. I was so numb, and they could care less. My Mom begged us not to move so fast, but I believe part of my just wanted her to be alive to see me marry. Marry into a life that was so inside the box ( Mom knew I'd never be able to conform into the doting farmers wife. It was all about them, and I could feel it manifesting into the most predictable, uptight, and unromantic day of my life...... I had just finished witha client when The Verve came over the sterio at the salon. The intro instantly got me. Something in the melody captured me, and I felt freedom in the music ofd this song I'd never heard before!!! Without even understanding or knowing the song meaning or lyrics, I turned to my girls and said "THIS IS IT!! " I want THIS SONG AT MY WEDDING. Once we are announced, I want to turn around and walk away from the alter with this melody blasting out over the lodge, river, and countryside........ Of corse the family didn't get me at all, But I got my way with my song choice! And It gave everyone goose bumps, and it was perfect!!! It was just the sound, that intro....made me feel strong, and free........................................................................................................ several years later, unhappy in my marriage, disgusted with how these people expected me to conform to their values and mondane way of their world. Discouraged with me because I became so removed because of my grief. Mom passed the following fall. I was a mess_ BIG TIME and I hated the world and the people I had in it. Selfish cowards, treated me so unkindly. I was expected to pull myself together strait away and take care of my husband afterall, he had made a few sacrifices to allow me to be close to my mom. "It was his turn now", Is what his mother said to me less than a week following my Moms death. I have fought the good fight, standing up for my rights, I head west to the ocean every chance I get. Boy do they hate that & find it ever so inappropriate for a wife to take solo trips to the river mouth where I released each of them. I have trees there planted up o the cliff over looking where the river meets the sea. Dad and I planted my Bro's together, all those years ago. It is strong and healthy. Its roots run deep into the earth. Several feet away is Pops tree, and the hillside is scattered with perrenial wildflowers in memory of ma. Holy SHIT, Had no IDEA I WOULD TAKE THIS SO FAR!!! ANYWAY....point being....it was one late summer eve, I pulled away from my church, out there in my sacred spot, just after sunset. I poped The Verve in and played Bittersweet Symphony as I drove away from the ocean, a smouldering smoky orange red aftermath of an Indian Summer sun-set in my review mirrior, I , for the first time, listened to the lyrics, word for word, and found myself at home with the irony of this chosen song. I laughed, outloud wondering if anyone paid attention to these lyrics at my wedding. Surely, they'd never 'get it' or even invest any thopught or time in my choice. A great choice, wouldn't you agree???? SORRY SO LONG! LONESOME, guess I needed a release. A Coward dies a thousand deaths.. A Brave man dies, but once. ~ An Indian Peace and full hearts to you all......... Hope you understood my story. I'm pretty intense about love. IN the end, It's all that matters! Tell someone you love, that you LOVE them TODAY...Follow-up with a HUG & let them be 1st to let go!!!! Excuse spelling errors (too long to proofread!!! I bet it's BAD! |
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| Heart – Dog And Butterfly Lyrics | 18 years ago |
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HI, real quick, before i go to bed,,,,my point was, when I hear this song , I see or feel my life in every verse! I don't mean to make it all about me, but the way I hear the song and take it in, it's like watching a movie of my life. I feel after each chorus, a new phase in the persons life (a new tragity to survive... I dunno, I do know after awhile I stopped searching for the real meaning. I'm afraid it will blow it for me (like if its written about a sheep-dog, I'd rather not know)! However, I did read every explanation above and do feel we are all on the same page in our conclusions. I agree about, wrestling with your desires...relating to drugs. I even agree with the cloud animals and felt it that way too. I have a few more favorite songs that totally move me and I'm not certain exactly what they are really about either...like Tiny Dancer, and A Lighter Shade of Pale ( annie lennox does a version but its an older song than that.LOVE IT!! But whats go'n on in the song?? Is it drugs and Alcohol again?? Probably. One more is Van Morrisons, Queen of the Slipstream. TOTAL favorite of mine, feel it, love it, have my own fantacy of what it means...But what does it REALLY mean???? ANSWERS ANYONE??? Wouldn't you guys die if I wrote a long ass story of my version of three more songs!! Good LORD, I must be lonely. Excuse all my spelling and typo errors. Pretty bad, but I'm jamm'n and it is late & I did just manage to emotionally exhaust myself! You too? Sorry! In my own m,ind, I'm an amazing journalist!! HAH! Good night strangers! |
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| Heart – Dog And Butterfly Lyrics | 18 years ago |
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Oh my God, this song still just brings me to my knees. It's unlike any other song and to me, it is timeless!!! I reached out back in April '05 when I discovered this website. I was searching for the meaning and was unsuccesful. This song has a very deep, personal meaning to me...it just rocks me down to my core. In my case I think of my old man (Pops). We watched 1,000's of sunsets out at the coast together. We had a special 'sacred' spot upon a cliffs edge just above the rivermouth. Ahhhh yes....where the river meets the sea. There is a huige rock up there that has like two seats carved into it from natures hands. A small one, and a larger one right next to it (our pews)!! We called it our 'church' and also named it after my only brother who died in 1989 by taking his own life. We planted a tree there in his memory. Pops and I shared some deep, and precious moments there. Pops enjoyed a little weed I will say, and this was a place I would sometimes join in. With or without the Pot, Dad and I would go on these amazing adventures, and never even leave the rock. Dad and I did manage to actually travel a bit of the world together....but this, this was home. We collected heart shaped rocks from our travels all over the globe and stashed them all over the hillside. We had so much funMy parents went threw a horrendous divorce when my bro & I were teens, It was devistating and just when you'd think things couldn't get MORE screwed up, boom, something ever worse would top the last. Totally turned our perfect, safe (we thought) life upside down and ultimately killed my Brother. He just couldn't take it anymore. He was a week shy of his 23rd birthday. Little would I know that in the years to come, I'd lose my entire family. Dad had a heart attack in the middle of the night (he and I were 150 miles apart(and just happened to be chatting on the phone(for 52 clear minutes) suddenly his voice faded, he told me he was tired, and a second later her was gone. Unbelieveable, but true, my Grandma (dads mom) passed away 8 hours after my Father from kidney failure. Dad lived with and took care of my Nana. Then, less than two years later, my Mom was diagnoised with terminal cancer. I dropped everything and moved home and took care of her.Mom was so strong, stubburn and beautiful. She put up a good fight, living 3x's longer than Doctors expected. It was during her illness that she and I took a drive out to our spot on the Coast. That day I planted a tree just a few feet from my Brothers in honor of POP. I was up there just slamming that shovel into the earth, crying harder than I ever had before, as ma waited down below. Chemo robbed her of strentgh or balance to be or get up there. I must have gotten lost in my conquest of getting this tree into the ground To be honest I think I was in so much pain, and so scared of what was yet to come, I think I just went somewhere else at that particular time. I snapped out of it when I heard the faint & worried yell from my Mother, who I left hopeless down below. It was wierd,. the sun had even set without me realizing it! F'ing brutal. You know, I don't think it would have been possible for one averaged size woman to haul that tree up the winding trail, dig down into the hardest of dirt, and plant that baby cypris if I didn't have all that pain, emotion, and love pumping threw my veins!! It was shortly after that, Mom lost her battle. She died in my arms at my home. I was through. I had nothing left. I forgot to leave any purpose for me to carry on. I lingered there, in the shadow of death for a long, very painful, and dark time. Its a wonder I didn't die from all the pills, booze, ciggerettes, and total abuse to my body. I just couldn't get it together after that. I have struggled threw alot, and am not quite sure how I am still here. I am not the same person I was before, thats for sure. I just didn't (and still don,t) know how a person carries on when there is no one left to make proud. No one there to root you on, have your back, or to go home too when life gets too scary to face alone. Even though I am all grown up and married I feel absolutely homeless, everywhere I go, Except the sacred place where the river meets the sea....... I know it is the wisdom from my father and stenth of my mother and the heart of my brother. You just have to try... You have to try. My battery is going to die! Wow, sorry! Didn't know I;d get in this far.... Wow, what a release! Peace ~Marnsmarie |
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| Procol Harum – A Whiter Shade of Pale Lyrics | 20 years ago |
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who sang the original? Van Morrison sings this song, as wellas Annie Lennox... But who is the Mastermind, the ORIGINAL?? And what does this song mean??? |
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| Heart – Dog And Butterfly Lyrics | 20 years ago |
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OHMIGOD, I feel so much when I hear this song. Like most my favorite songs, they move me yet I find as I really listen to the lyrics, I have absolutely no idea what it REALLY means!!! Is Dog and Butterfly about a girl who is being encourage to not give up on life. Pushed to try,try,and try again??? Or The opposite? It's driving me nuts! Found this website this afternoon! Help?? |
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