| Marianas Trench – By Now Lyrics | 2 months ago |
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Some more relationship reflections from my first ever romantic relationship: "How've you been? Can I come in? Just came to get my things and then I guess I'm leaving" This particular segment of the song doesn't really relate to the relationship that I had with my ex because we never lived with each other or anything. The only reason I'd go see him would be to pick up my book that I lent him, but not gonna happen! "If I could say what you'd like to hear I'd whisper in your ear it's only temporary But I've been taking you for granted" A part of me just wanted to take a break from what we had for the time being and get back together once he had more free time to spend with me, but then I realized he was taking me for granted and I didn't want to wait around and be walked all over any longer. "I thought you'd feel the same as me It's time that I come clean, but But for now can we just both pretend to sleep" When I ended things, I expected him to fight for me, to fight for us, but no! I really didn't want us to be over, but he wasn't putting the effort in anymore and I didn't have the physical or the mental capacity to carry the burden alone. I had tried many time to communicate what it was that I needed, but he just didn't get it and wouldn't even try to understand. "Sometimes the one you want is not the one you need What goes around don't come around You should know me by now" I wanted him and he claimed to want me, but it's like, if you really want someone, wouldn't you continue to put the same effort in throughout the whole relationship? Wouldn't you take the time to communicate what it is you need in order for the relationship to be a success? I'll admit, he did communicate his needs, but he didn't validate my own needs and what good of a relationship is it when only one partner is getting their needs met? What I gave to him I wasn't getting in return. I thought he would have known me better than he did, but I guess not. "Our talk is small, I'm seven inches tall And you should keep the apartment So here's my keys, changed all the bills We're only built to spill and wonder where the heart went You've been taking me for granted." It didn't use to be small, but as we were nearing the end of our relationship, our talk didn't go as deep as it used to because he wouldn't open up as much like he did before. So in the end, we were only built to spill and wondering where the heart went when really, no relationship is going to be all happy-go-lucky all the time. He really did take me for granted. "I know that I remember you I think that you remember me too How can one of us still feel blessed when the other one's lost I know you've got to feel the change It just gets worse when it stays the same How can one of us still feel blessed when the other one's so lost" Obviously I remembered him, as I continued to make the time to get to know him and stuff, but him? He stopped remembering stuff that mattered to me. I was lost and he...idk how he was feeling in the end. I wish that he could have kept changing along with me, but he somewhere along the line, he stayed put, leaving me to push forward without him. |
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| Fefe Dobson – Take Me Away Lyrics | 4 months ago |
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I was waiting all my life to know you - It sure felt that way when I was coming up with this interpretation for the very first time; It's like, I had wanted a boyfriend for as long as I could remember. All about you - The more time I spent with him, the more I wanted to get to know him. And now, I'm staring in your eyes in sheer fear - A part of me was afraid to communicate with him that I was catching romantic feelings. I guess the reason why I was as scared as I was could have been due to him potentially feelings the same way as I was feeling about him (which it turns out, he did!). Also, opening up means being vulnerable and facing the music when it's dire. I'm all about you - Tell me more about you! And in our minds it comes so easily - It seemed so simple whenever we were interacting together as friends, but who could forget... But there's a feeling coming over me - All of the nausea, anxiety and fear that weighs you down, making it hard to focus your attention on that special someone in your life?! I wanna show you but there's nowhere we can really be free - I found it hard to connect with him because of how far away he lived from me. Everybody's watchin' - Let's not forget you never know when your family is listening in on your private conversations with your friends! Wouldn't it be good if we could be together? - It was; it really was. We had our own fairy tale romance. Take me away - Sweep me off my feet (he did!) Take me far away from here - As long as we were spending time together, we were doing perfectly fine. I will run with you - Almost like in Romeo and Juliet! Don't be afraid - I realize now that it was okay to have all of the fears in the back of my mind because it meant I cared a lot about him and wanted things to work out, which they did for a while. Navigate and I will steer - I was really hoping he would make the first move by courting me and I guess he kind of did, but I was the first person to open up about my feelings for him. Into the sun, we will run - We had our own forbidden romance! I try to remember when I was just a child - I'll admit, I do think back to my childhood every now and again, back when everything was simple. In my room - I spend the majority of my time alone in my room. My imagination used to run wild - Oh my goodness! I used to come up with hundreds of different scenarios back when I was a child, usually related to love. But I never knew - There's a lot of things that you don't know when you're a kid, so you end up coming up with a story in the back of your mind to have a better understanding about the things you know nothing about at that age. That nothing's ever as it seems to be - Everyone has a different perspective on things, so you never know what is going on in the back if their minds unless you ask them. A lot of people act like they are okay when deep down inside, they aren't. They just act like they're okay to keep the peace but deep down inside they're screaming to be set free. When a dream collides with a reality - It's like in Gilmore Girls when Luke and Lorelai FINALLY get together, but then... It should be easy when two people love each other to me - The media makes love and relationships look so easy when really, they aren't easy at all. Everybody's talking - Shifting gears back to Gilmore Girls for a second, everyone has an opinion on everything and they often put their cents in, even though you never asked them for their opinion. Wouldn't it be good if they would understand us? - I can imagine this must have been what Like and Lorelai were thinking after the whole town found out they were together. |
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| Marianas Trench – B Team Lyrics | 4 months ago |
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My interpretation of the song before getting into a relationship with my now ex-boyfriend: You could want this I didn't know for sure if he wanted to try being my boyfriend for a while, but I knew if he did... See if it fits for a bit That I was open to giving the girlfriend/boyfriend thing a try and... and if you don't like it If all else fails and say for instance we don't work out as girlfriend and boyfriend (which is what actually happened)... Then you can go, like you have been We could always go back to being friends, even if it makes things a bit more complicated. *Now that we are no longer together, I realize why most couples have nothing to do with each other after their relationships don't end up working, but I really like this guy, so I feel like if both parties are wanting to rekindle the friendship that they had before, that nothing's impossible as long as they both are putting an effort in to make things work. And I'll never tell, never tell how I fell for it I think here Josh is saying discussion isn't necessary for what once was, but I feel like it's important to discuss all aspects of a relationship no matter how uncomfortable they may be. Additionally, any past issues that have happened are good to talk about to avoid resentment and future misunderstandings. I never fell before Here it seems Josh is denying ever having romantic feelings for Amanda (his wife), but I feel like it isn't the healthiest to push away your feelings, even if they are uncomfortable. 3, 2, 1, you get right up and I'm the one done I think here Josh is expressing his frustration towards Amanda. While she (Amanda ) appears to be moving past what once was, it seems that Josh is stuck in his feelings and having trouble letting go of what once was. I definitely relate to Josh's perspective here. You never say yes, not quite no Here it seems Josh is continuing to express his frustration in relation to his past romantic relationship with Amanda; It's as if Amanda had an avoidant attachment style at the time the song was written. Either that or her needs & expectations going into their romantic relationship were different from Josh's. I don't blame Josh for having his feelings about the whole thing with Amanda, but at the same time, if he has a problem with the way things are working out in their relationship then perhaps it would be good if he communicated so with Amanda so that they are on the same page. You say just enough to make me not go Now it seems like even though Josh is frustrated with Amanda at times, that she always ends up saying the right thing to make him feel at ease and comfortable in the relationship. That's how things worked with me and my boyfriend as well. You choose your words in careful voice She chooses her words carefully and ends up with most of the power in the relationship, leading to codependency on Josh's side. But in the end I'm not the first choice I think here Josh is saying that the words someone chooses isn't the only way words are communicated; The tone of voice being used is just as important as the words said, maybe even more. Also, I think here Josh feels that Amanda is looking for someone else to be with instead of him. Either that, or his relationship with Amanda isn't being prioritized like the other commitments in their life are. You say you want someone just like me I guess here Josh is restating something Amanda told him before, how she wants to be with someone that has the same values and stuff, but then... So then why am I your plan, why am I your plan, why am I your plan B? Obviously Josh feels like he's second best, and that he isn't good enough for her, making him her "plan b." You know, you know you love the way I linger and Here Josh is saying how Amanda loves having him lingering around her. I related to this when I was in a relationship with my ex boyfriend; It's like, I really enjoyed having him around and I know he loved having me around as well. You keep me wrapped right around your finger and We kept each other real close and spent the majority of our spare time together. I feel like for Josh, he felt like Amanda was grabbing a hold of him so tightly that he was losing track of his identity and feeling stuck like a puppet on a string. You say, you say just wait a little longer and And in time I could be the right one Please, I'm the B team When you put all three of these lines together, it gets you thinking that perhaps Josh was tired of waiting around to be accepted and loved by Amanda; tired of being second best. This could hurt some Here Josh is saying that they could both end up hurting from their romantic relationship, which is what happened with me and my ex boyfriend when we were together. If you think about it though, with every relationship you enter into, there is always the potential of hurt feelings. You know that you've got a keeper when they are okay with any of the obstacles that come up and make the time to work through them in a healthy way. But if we don't, we'll never know what it's worth to ya If they didn't give their romantic relationship a try, then they never would have known if it would have worked out or not, but because they did, it ended up working out for them. I saw you first, do ya remember? I guess here Josh is saying how he fell for Amanda first and so he made the first move and did whatever was necessary to sweep her off her feet. I was lucky because my ex swept me off my feet and made the first move himself. You played it well, Victims sell, how I fell for it I never fell before I guess Amanda played the victim and Josh didn't catch on until he had already been played. Basically, he manipulated her, whether it was intentional or not (mind you, I could be wrong with my interpretation of the song.). You like to make me beg me, yes you like it, you like to make me beg, you do She liked it when he was the only one putting an effort into their relationship, even though there were two of them in the relationship and not just the one person (Josh). |
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| Marianas Trench – Lover Dearest Lyrics | 4 months ago |
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More relationship reflections... This place is a hole, but I don't want to go. I wish we could stay here forever alone. This time that we waste, but i still love your taste. Don't let him take my place, don't just sit there. A part of me really didn't want things to be done and wanted to stay with him forever. We wasted so much time together, but I enjoyed every minute wasted away with him. I didn't want anyone to take my place, but I knew things weren't going anywhere with us and that I couldn't sit there any longer. Sometimes I wish you would leave me. I'm not sick of you yet, is that as good as it gets, I'll just hide it, or i could slip into you. Its so easy to come back into you. Like a drug, I was addicted to the love we had. I felt like I could never get sick of him, but at the same time, things weren't getting better. I kept hiding who I was, as it was easy to stay and do nothing than say something for fear of being let go of. I stared for awhile, and waited for words, Seen but not heard and struggled to try. My tongue's turning black, but I'll take you back. You're still the best more or less, I guess. I guess. Don't you leave me For a while, I did stay, waiting for the words to come, struggling deep inside. I wasn't being treated the best, but I kept taking him back like it was no big deal. I didn't want him to leave me, yet I could already feel him drifting away. It hurts me to say that it hurts me to stay. And it might be alright if you go. It hurts me to say that I want you to stay, but it might be alright if you go. So leave me' It really was hard to finally open up to him and let him know how I was feeling, but it had to be done. At the end of the day, all of the nights spent crying into my pillow case was only hurting myself and so, as much as I wanted him to stay, I knew that I had to let go of him and all that we had. Sometimes I think that The bitter in you, and the quitter in me, is the bitter in you and the quitter in me. The bitter in you, and the quitter in me, is the better in you and the quitter in me. The bitter in you, and the quitter in me, is better than the both of us. I don't know how to explain these last few lines, but I guess things are better now that we are no longer in a relationship together. |
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| Marianas Trench – Push Lyrics | 4 months ago |
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Another reflection on how the song related to my first romantic relationship: You never really wanted it You'll settle for a bit of it We started with a big bang And now it's coming back again He didn't want it at first, but he ended up giving it a try. Things were happening really quickly for us, until they weren't... Hey, don't you feel it now? My shiny side down Hey, burning brighter still And you're getting sick And you're feeling it Once I got to expressing my feelings, he wasn't comfortable and got sick of it all, and so, he kept pulling and pulling away. It'll wear you down and wear you down You chase it, breathing in and out and in and out They'll push you up against the wall, against the wall You didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong about it Push My honesty was getting to be too much for him, wearing him down, yet he kept chasing it until he felt the push. He didn't think he would feel so much, but he was wrong. It started with a handgun Loaded with excuses I started faking it And then we started breaking it All the pieces used to fit Using like it's going out of style Maybe just a little while And This will be the last time Every time's the last time Excuses, excuses, excuses. He kept bringing them up and since he wasn't taking ownership for his actions, I started acting like I was okay, even though I really, truly, wasn't. That's when things started to break and no longer fit like they used to. Hey, don't you feel it now? My shiny side down Hey, burning brighter still And you're getting stuck And you fucked it up He felt stuck, so he started putting up a wall of boundaries; boundaries that worked for him and him alone. I respected them, but I wasn't happy. And then when I tried to speak up and set a boundary of my own, he wouldn't respect it. I regreted it I regret a lot of things I regreted it I regret a lot of things I wonder if he regrets how things ended with us. I know I have my regrets. I wish I spoke up more for myself and didn't let him walk all over me, but what's done is done. At least there's a lesson to be learned from it all. |
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| Marianas Trench – Skin & Bones Lyrics | 4 months ago |
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It's funny how your life experiences can shift your perspective on the music and other media that you consume in your day to day life. I know most of the songs on Fix Me are supposed to be about drugs and whatnot, but my interpretation on this particular song has changed ever since I got out of my first romantic relationship. Now it's as if I am experiencing the song from a different lens than I was before. I lock the door and turn all the water on and bury that sound, so no one hears anything anymore. These first few lines in the song get me thinking about how I was feeling after ending things with my first boyfriend; I spent the majority of time in my room with the music blasting so that no one would hear me crying. Mirror lie to me, tell me you can see. Maybe you won't be able to recognize me now. It felt like the longer I stayed in a romantic relationship with my boyfriend, that I would keep on losing track of who I was and what it meant to stay true to myself; I could no longer recognize the girl in the mirror. What happened to that girl that wasn't afraid to speak her mind, to advocate for herself and the people in her life? I know you can feel all the things you steal And you're taking it, you're taking it I wonder if he was aware just how much of my identity was being taken away the longer we were together. He kept taking and taking when all I ever did was give until I had nothing else to give. Feeling so easy Make me skin and bones I'm always on my knees for you You break like it's even When you're leaving it thin Where the hell have you been? At the start, things felt so easy, like he could never do me wrong, until he did. Again, all I did was give and he took advantage of my good nature. It ended up that soon after I opened my heart up to him, that he wasn't ready to open his up to me himself, and so, he started to pull away from me and the beautiful bond that we had with each other. Well, sometimes it burns Maybe I'll wash it out It all looks so big Never mind, I don't feel anything It only hurt a bit I still feel like shit And I think you won't be able to recognize me now It's easier to quit It's harder to admit And you're pushing me, you're fucking pushing me! At first, it was easy for me to open up about the serious matters occupying my mind, but because he wasn't opening up himself, fear was starting to settle in, and so, when things started to hurt (or in this case, "burn"), I would hold it all in and act like I was okay with things, even though I knew deep down inside that I wasn't okay and that I wouldn't be unless I opened up some more to him. Things felt big at times, but yeah, I didn't want to make it a bigger deal than it was, and so, I held onto all of my hurt, and yeah, it hurt. It was easier to hold it all in than to open up and let him know I felt. 'Cause you always win And you, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, yeah! Laughin' like it works Bleeding like it don't hurt Knock you off your feet Even if you need me Tear you apart, and I hate how I need you, oh, oh It turned out, he was always winning. As soon as I brought up boundaries of my own, he wouldn't have it. It was his way or the highway. I didn't want to need him, but it sure felt like I needed him and that he needed me, except what good is a relationship when you become the only person putting an effort in to work things out? I will burn all this I will burn all this I will burn all this I will burn all this I will burn all this I will burn all this I will burn all this I will burn all this I will burn all this Did I burn every remainder of our relationship? No, but that doesn't mean I didn't think about doing so. |
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